Melanin Drops: A POC Book

🗣 Conforming Because of Another Human.

Okay, so something just set me off a couple of minutes ago and now my vibes are all down. I'm obviously gonna tell you guys why.

So, if you didn't know, I'm kind of a bust girl. People constantly talk about. Today, I was wearing a tank top in the comfort of my home with my step dad and mom (and dog but that's kind of irrelevant). I was walking into the living room to watch TV with my mom when she told me, "Change your shirt, your tank top is hanging too low." I was like okay but when I got into my room I showed my emotion and I was pissed as hell.

I mean, it wasn't low and all and a girl with a size smaller than mine with her shirt hanging at the same level was probably no problem. It pissed me off so bad that I had to go from comfortable to some frumpy t-shirt that I don't want to wear all night.

I mean it really did kill my vibe. I wasn't trying to show them off, that never usually the case. I was just being comfortable. Just like other times when people tell me to cover my breast up. Then I have to struggle and be all uncomfortable because they can be decent enough to not pay attention to it or not care.

I mean, it's my body, why does it matter? I'm the one that has to deal with them. If I don't care that they are slightly hanging out of my shirt. I mean I wasn't flirting at all, chilling and reading. What is the purpose of making me change? You want me to be "presentable"? So what, my body as it's own isn't presentable. The body GOD gave me is TOO much for people.

Just like once I told my parents I hated wearing stockings. I mean I just do, they don't even go all the way up so that just say on my hips. I hate that crap. Then my mom and grandma said I would look like a good young girl with them. They say it shows that you aren't a "loose" girl. So the way you dress tells your story? Wow, not wearing stockings mean I'm a hoe?

They also said that my future husband was gonna make me wear them because he doesn't want me to be seen as loose. He would want me to look presentable because that's the message I should send. That leads into a whole nother thing about me not going to dress for a damn man no matter what. If my man can't accept what I wear, is he really my man?

Anyways, that kinda pissed me off. I am not as mad but I'm still mad. I wish people would just let people be. I just wanted to wear a tank top because it was hot and because I was tryna chill but I guess that's out the picture right now.

And I will end with a question ..

Am I RIGHT or am I WRONG?

love,

black girl ki.

🌀SELF PROMO🌀

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