Malec One Shots

27. Panic

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Song ~ Lord Huron - The Night We Met
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Alec got a kiss as soon as he walked through the door to the loft. He slid his hands into Magnus' black hair and rested his forehead against his boyfriend's. "I have bad news.." Alec hushed, and Magnus' face dropped. "What's wrong? Are you hurt?" Magnus panicked, sliding his hands under Alec's shadowhunter gear, the thick leather of his clothes were cool against his fingers.

"No, god no, Magnus. I'm all in one piece." Alec soothed, moving his hand from Magnus' hair so it rested on his cheek that glimmered with highlight. "Then what's wrong?" "Mum is making me and Isabelle move to Idris.." Alec whispered, staring at his shoes. Magnus looked confused. "What do you mean? I don't understand." Magnus replied coldly. "I mean.. I can't see you anymore. Mum doesn't like the idea of us being together for one, and we have important affairs in Alicante." Alec sighed, grazing his thumb over Magnus' cheekbone. Magnus stepped away; away from Alec's touch, his warmth. He stared at his boyfriend, hurt in his eyes. It wasn't his fault, so should he be mad at all? He didn't decide to move to Idris, he didn't decide to break up with him. It was inevitable. No downworlders were allowed in the city centre, not since the war against Valentine. It had to happen, right?

Alec took a step forward, and Magnus recoiled again. He didn't know why. His heart was screaming at him, and so was his brain but for different reasons. "Magnus, please. I'm sorry." Alec hushed himself, as if he was trying to calm down. He was. Outside he seemed calm and collected but inside was a battleground. He loved this man. This man was his first kiss, his first time, his first real love. And now he was breaking it off because his family was making him leave the country to stay with them in a place where Magnus couldn't go. For fucks sake this was pissing Alec off. "Can you leave?" Magnus choked, and Alec saw the tears well up in his eyes. "Yeah.. I'll just.." Alec trailed off, and looked up a little more. He felt like she shouldn't have, he felt intrusive. Magnus blinked slow and hard, pushing back the tears, and Alec stepped forward again. Magnus didn't move, it was like he wasn't even breathing anymore.

Alec hesitated for a second before taking a deep breath and placing his hands on either side of Magnus' face, pulling him in for one last kiss before he left. His lips were cold, not warm like they usually were, and the kiss only had a hint of love in, an undertone. The majority of feeling in the kiss was sadness. Magnus could feel it. Alec didn't even bother getting his stuff from the apartment. He just left without a word.

It was a year after Alec had moved away, and he was alive and alone in his bland bedroom. The country house they had was pretty but not the loft, and basically everything reminded Alec of Magnus. The demon towers glittered in the sun just like the denim jacket Magnus owned, the cat that slept underneath Alec's bed at night had eyes exactly like Magnus', and Isabelle's constant droning on about how he needed a new boyfriend made him think about Magnus even more than he already did. Alec pulled a jumper over his head and padded barefoot through the house to the living room where Isabelle was sat with Robert. She was blatantly ignoring him, and he was yelling about how Alec had 'messed up' by being with Magnus. Alec hid beside the doorway, and listened. "That warlock has corrupted my son, that man." Robert spat the word out like Magnus wasn't even the same gender as him.

"We're taking him to the bar down the road tonight, and we're going to find him a nice shadowhunter gir-" "No, dad. We're not. He won't leave his room for one, and Alec was genuinely happy with Magnus, he was in love." Isabelle cut him off, but she was bit back at with another stinging comment about her big brother. "He wouldn't know what love was if it bit him in the ass, Isabelle. Especially if not with a man." He snarled, like the words were poison on his tongue. "My brother deserves to be happy. He's gay. Accept that or leave, I don't care if you're our father, you're just a man if you don't love your son for who he is." Isabelle yelled, sounding hostile, and marched out of the room to see Alec slouched against the wall beside the doorway. "Did you-" "I heard, Izzy. Let's go.." Alec got onto his feet, and walked with Isabelle.