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Chapter 21

Nang makapasok ako sa classroom ay ang  ingat at gulo nila. Medyo na late ako ng konti kaya medyo madami dami na ang tao lalo na at wala pa kaming teacher. Dahil wala akong magawa at inaantok pa ako ay hinayaan kong ipatong ang ulo ko sa braso na naka cross sa lamesa. 

I need a break. I have a lot of things to think like when will I see Marco again, is his Mom still mad at me, what am I suppose to do with Khyle and if Gian will do his promise as soon as possible. If I just could tell Khyle everything and help me think but I also promise to Gian. Its for Khyle's security.

"Ms. Navarro!" Sir Reyes called me. I didn't notice that his here. Hindi ko nga pala katabi si Mary at Khyle sa subject na 'to.

"Yes, Sir?" I quickly stand up.

"Are you okay? You look problematic." I just chuckled at him and shake my head. "I'm good, Sir."

Someone knock after my words. "Good Morning, Sir. Sorry I'm late. Can I come in?" I know that voice. Kaya naman ng nagtama ang mga mata namin ay nabuhayan ako. 

"Yes you may, Mr. Vergara." Sir Reyes replied. 

I saw how girls blush after seeing him smile. When he looks at me he wink. Err! I am trying not to smile. Nang maka upo ako ay nilingon ko siya sa likod ko. 

"Good morning," Pasimple akong kumaway sa kanya. Gusto ko man siyang yakapin ay hindi pwede dahil masyadong maraming mata ang nakatingin. Lumingon na lang ulit ako sa teacher namin para makinig sa kung ano mang sinasabi niya.

Lunch came and here I am with Marco at one of the silent canteen we have. Iilan lang ang tao dito madalas dahil malayo ito sa mga building. Plus, mostly ay nasa main canteen ang mga popular people kaya mas gusto din ng iba duon.

"So.. How's your past days without me?" I asked in the middle of our lunch. Dito kami madalas kumakain dahil hindi naman chismosa ang mga nandidito dahil madalas na nandito ay yung mga walang pake sa pagilid. 

Gusto lang ng katahimikan o di kaya ay mag aral. Mabuti na nga lang at hindi siya sinusundan na masyado ng mga girls.

"Fine, I guess... But I like it more when I'm with you." Napangiti naman ako sa sinabi niya. "Are you okay? You look so tired." Iyon talaga ang napansin niya. Masyado kasi din akong naging busy this past few days na wala siya.

"Yeah. Yeah. There's so much things going on." I simply said. Nagtanong tanong pa siya ngunit hindi ko lang sinabi ang tungkol sa secret namin ni Gian. Basta ang sabi ko ay may problema si Khyle.

Plus kahapon ay nagalit sakin si mommy dahil nitry ko itakas ang sasakyan ngunit kalalabas pa lang ng gate at nabangga ko na agad kaya kinailangan kong bumalik.

After lunch, I am a bit more silent. I feel so tired. Maybe I should stop thinking. Iyon din ang dahilan kung bakit ako tahimik pauwi. Kasama ko si Marco ngayon. Oo, masaya ako na kasama siya ngunit pakiramdam ko talaga ay pagod ako kaya hindi ako masyado maka salita. Wala akong energy.

"Are we good?" Napatingin ako sa kanya. Iyon ang nagpabalik sakin at napatigil ako sa pag iisip.

Nilingon ko siya."Yeah." I said then look outside. Ramdam ko ang tingin niya ngunit hindi ko na lamang din pinansin. Pagod talaga ako sa mga nangyayari.

"Thank you. Ingat ka." Ani ko. I was about to get out of his car when we reach our home when he stop me like he always do. "Are we really good?" I can see confusion at his eyes.

"I already said yes diba?" I don't know why I can't stand looking at his eyes so I look away but he hold my chin and makes me look at him again. I look away again just using my eyes because he is not letting go my chin.

"No, we're not good."

"Look at me and tell me that we're good." Hindi ko alam bakit ayaw ko tumingin sa kanya at hindi din ako nag salita. "See! You can't do it. Tell me if you have a problem and we'll fix it before you get inside. I don't want us separate like this, love." 

I felt butterflies on my stomach. Why is he like this? This is new to me.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not being always here with you. I know that you need me.. I'm sorry, love. What can I do to make it up to you?" He said when I didn't speak. He held my cheeks. I look at him. "I'm sorry too. Wala naman sakin yun, alam kong busy ka. I understand that. It's just I don't know what gotten to me.. Maybe dahil wala lang ako sa mood." Then my tears flow at my cheeks. He quickly wipe them.

"Sshhhh. Don't cry. I don't like seeing you crying because of me, love." After he wipe my tears. He kiss my both eye lids then my lips. "Do you want to do something first para maaliw ka? We need to divert your attention."

I really love this guys. Yes. Love. I am already in love with him. Nuong una ayoko aminin dahil baka hindi niya masuklian pero ngayon ay hindi ko na kaya mag hold back. I can feel that I am already in love with him.

Gusto ko na updated ako sa kanya. Gusto ko nakikita siya lagi. Gusto ko siyang kasama lagi. Gusto ko na akin lang siya. Hindi ko na nakikita ang sarili ko sa future na wala siya sa tabi ko pero sana ganun din siya sakin.

"I love you." I said after the kiss. 

Our forehead is still touching. Nakita ko ang gulat niya dahil napatras din siya ng konti para mas makita ako.This is the first time I say i love you to him. Kinakabahan pa ko dahil baka hindi na niya ako kausapin pag katapos nito. Ayokong maghost niya dahil hulog na hulog na ako. 

Maybe this is one sided so I'm nervous. I held his hands that is still on my cheeks.

"I love you more." Lahat ng kaba at pangamba ko ay nawala. He love me too. I smile and hug him so tightly.

I think I am the happiest person in the world right now. Yes, I am that happy.