The Boss' Silent Worker (Completed)

TB'SW ♥ 20: Epitome of Satisfaction

Chapter 20

He even pushed me closer to him, making me feel his warmth while kissing me deeply. Eventhough the sensation that I am currently feeling is priceless, there's still tears that is flowing on my cheeks.

The feeling of mixed emotions of pain, happiness, fears is making me so sad. I don't know what is really happening to me?
I never felt this kind of feeling before. But why now, I feel like everything I have is slowly getting away from me.

And that was because of the man who's kissing me right now? Why am I scared to be his? Why am I still scared to be agaisnt my own principles, where in fact I already ruined it? Is this because of what happened in the past? Am I still scared about that?

I know that what happened before is pretty traumatic, but is it enough that I am like this now?

I am a woman with dignity and class, people loves me and adore me for what they believe and for what they see. They doesn't even know a single of me. The thing that they only knew that, I am Erza Scarlet Quevas, the queen of silence and perfections. They're stupid. They believe in me just because I'm good not because they really know me.......well.

Jellal stared at me after a long breathless kiss he we had. I admit that his kisses were very romantic and it makes my heart flutter.

Inilagay niya ang mga takas ng aking buhok sa likod ng aking tenga , he gently caressed my long brown hair whilst touching the smoothness of my shoulders.

I didn't hold myself to look at him. It is the first time I saw Sir Astrair this serious. I know him as a blunt guy who always triggers my vexation.

This guy in front of me is telling me that he really loves me. And who am I kidding? He's known of being a Casanova Playboy. But in the end, I just found myself giving in wholeheartedly.

I laughed in sarcasm.

I'm 24 years old, yet I am their employee for almost five years. Aren't you wondering why at young age I managed to work for them?

At the age of 19 , I started working to them because of my advance learning.

I graduated with Latin Honors in my university at the age of seventeen in architecture course. I'm so so young and everyone adored me for that. But no one knows the real reason behind my success.

It's an embarrassment to admit that I am not deserving to be the person they adore. I was just a daughter of a father who works a a vendor and a mother that is a prostitute.

I have a beauty that anyone dreamt to posses but sadly. I hate it. It only reminds me of her.

I am silent because I don't want people to be near me. I don't want people to say something bad to me. I don't want them notice me. I only want to be alone, just mex myself.

I grew up without experiencing real meaning of a family. I used to work in advance to prove them that I CAN DO BETTER THAN THEY EXPECTED.

But now. Astrair Grayfaurd, my boss end up loving me? I wish I never ever heard him say that.

"Sshh... Why are you crying? " He whispered on my ear.

I don't know what to answer him. I don't find this situation best to have a flashback.

Maybe I am feeling this pain right now because I'm scared of loving him. I'm scared that if I'll love him, he will leave me too. I am used that people I love leaves, but this feelings I have for him, this is so foreign, I never felt like this before.

I was hurt the time I saw him hugged Emerald that he used to do with me. I hate the idea that he is fair in treating his girls. I am afraid to fall in love with him! I am afraid to love someone that I never did before. I am afraid to take the risk. I don't want to be like her! I don't want to like my mother!