WP New Stories' One-Shot Story Contest

Entry 6: Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious : THE WHITE ROSE

I laid my back while staring blankly towards the calm and peaceful sky that holds thousands of twinkling and magnificent stars. Tears started to fell from my weak and lifeless eyes. I want to shout but it seems like my voice disappeared, so instead, I just cry inside my heart without making any single noise. The sorrow and the feeling of being alone and left out to this fallen world started to invade my soul as each memories started to flash back in my head. I want to ask ‘Why of all people I was the unfortunate chosen one to receive this kind of heartbreaking gift?’, ‘What have I done to deserve this kind of punishment?’, and ‘What should I do to free myself from this chain of pain and to get out from this jail surrounded by a melancholic and miserable ambiance?’ I want to throw those questions to the Supreme Being -- the Almighty God -- the Heavenly Father, but how can I talk to Him? Is He even exists? No one ever seen Him, right? I slowly closed my eyes and found darkness and sadness. I breathe deeply and calm myself. They said, if you want to talk to Him, just close your eyes and talk like He is in front of you. I did that a lot of times already especially that day, but it didn’t help me, nothing changed. I cried for His name but I received no response. But still I want to try it again using my last candle of hope and faith. ‘Do you hear me? Where were you that day? Are you with us? Did you see us? Did you hear me crying? Did my prayer reach you? Why... Can I know why? Please let me know, explain to me your wisdom. Why did you let that thing to happen? Please...answer me. I need to know.’ I said powerless while tears still flowing freely to my wounded cheeks. I continue talking to Him using the voice of my grieving heart. Tears burst out and rapidly leaving my eyes, I can’t stop these liquids to flow; I can’t even control it, it’s seems like unlimited. Is there anyone who can explain me why my tears are not running out of stock? Is it because I am weak that’s why they don’t want to leave my eyes? I focused my soul to the endless darkness again and continue begging to Him, ‘I already want to give up! I don’t even see anything that is worth living for. Then, can I die instead? Can You accept me there? At the paradise that the bible, the priest and the pastors are talking about? After that, I’ll meet him again and we can start to build the family that we dreamt of 5 years ago? Give me a sign. If I will see a white rose, then I’ll leave this world. Please. I’ll wait for Your answer, but don’t make me wait too long for I know this time I can’t bear it anymore. 5 years... 5 years of being a lifeless human is too much for me. I can’t hold on any longer now. Make it fast...please...’

I slowly opened my eyes. The sky is still enchanting and charismatic but I can’t found myself enjoying it. 5 years ago, here at the same place where I am lying, the most beautiful picnic ground in town, the same time with the presence of those shining stars on our anniversary, he knelt down in front of me, holding a small red box in his hand. I didn’t expect that He will finally say those four heart-melting words, “Will you marry me?” he asked sweetly. I cried but because of happiness. If only my smile can reach heaven to show how supercalifragilisticexpialidocious I am that I can even reach the cloud nine due to my too much happiness. “Can you give me the greatest gift that I am wishing for since the day that we met?” I unconsciously nodded my head. “Can you be my partner not only to our temporary life here on earth but also to our eternal life in heaven?” My face is already wet with tears but I can’t help it but to cry. I was overwhelmed. This is the best gift I had ever received.

“Ye---“ I haven’t said that word. My eyes are widely opened. The people around us who are just watching from us seconds ago are now screaming. But as I saw the love of my life, hugging me tightly but now little by little losing his tight arms wrapped around my body, “shh.. don’t be scared” he said to calm me. “Let’s get out of here!” I said frightfully. I hold his arm and drag him to run but I was shocked when he fell down on the ground. That’s when I saw his body full of blood. I sat beside him not knowing what to do. I am very scared; my body is trembling and shaking due to fear. Not because of the gunshots, but because of him. “No... No... Matt, hold on.” I hold his hand tightly, I am afraid to let go of him. “Don’t leave me. Okay? I’ll call for help. Please.” When I was about to run, he didn’t let go of my hand. “No. Sab, stay here. I-I want t-to say...something.” he said catching his breath. ‘Oh God, please save him.’ “No. I’ll come back, wait for me.” I said crying. “No, baby, it’s okay...Li..Listen to me. P-Please. LIVE.” He said while looking at me, tears started to streams from his eyes and blood flows from his mouth. ‘God, I’ll do everything you want just please help him.’ “It’s my fault. You saved me.” I said painfully. I should be the one who is lying now but he turned himself as a human shield of mine. “No, it’s...not...your fault. C-Cry. But not too long. M-Move on. Live ha...happily.” he said. “How can you ask me that? You’re my life. So don’t leave me or else I’ll follow you wherever you’ll go.” I meant it. “Don’t do that! You promise me!” He shouted at me but it turned out to be a whisper. “No.” I can’t promise him that. “Sabrina.” He said seriously, and I saw pain strikes in his eyes. “Okay, I promise. Just don’t leave me.” I said fearfully. ‘God please I beg you. I love this man so much. Don’t get him. Not now please. I can’t.’  “I-I can’t stay...” his blooded hands touched my cheeks to wipe my tears. “...Keep...y-your pro...promise. I love you...so much.” Then his hands left my face and slowly closed his eyes. “Matt? Matt? Matthew?!” I scream. I cried and scream while hugging his body. I prayed to Him again not to take my life away from me. I can’t live without him. I can’t... I can’t.