Langst One-Shots

Only Human

//CONTAINS SELF-HARM AND SUICIDAL THOUGHTS/ACTIONS//

-Lance's POV-

"Lance! WHAT WAS THAT?" Shiro yelled, slamming his helmet onto the table. "I-I'm sorry, I-" Keith cut me off. "You need to pay more attention and try harder." He growled. I flinched. "You almost got Pidge KILLED!" Allura snapped, glaring down at me. "No, you guys have it wrong, Lance didn't-" Pidge began before Keith cut her off. "He almost killed you because he was goofing off and not taking things seriously." He growled, "He screwed things up like usual." I froze, my heart pounding. "Y-You're right. I'm sorry, it-it won't happen again." I said, looking at the ground. "I'll try harder." "You better, Lance, Or we'll have Allura pilot Blue next mission." Shiro stated sharply. My eyes widened and grew wet with unshed tears.

I'm replaceable. I'm a screwup.

"O-Okay." My voice cracked, and I struggled not to break down. I forced a weak smile, "I'm sorry. It won't happen again." I quickly wheeled around and walked into the hallway. I bit my lip and kept my gaze trained on the ground. I started to sprint towards my room, slamming the door closed and locking it, sliding down the cold metal as tears started to prick at my eyes. "Quiznak, I really screwed up." My voice wavered, "I screwed everything up." I gripped at my hair, my breath coming in short heavy bursts.

"I-I can't do this." I sobbed as tears started to drip down my face.

Thoughts swirled in my head,

"You were goofing off again."

"Screwed everything up like usual."

"You almost killed her!"

"You need to try harder!"

"Allura will pilot Blue next mission!"

I cringed as my breath started to speed up, my hands beginning to shake.

"I'm replaceable."

"I screwed everything up."

"Why am I here?"

My thoughts swirled around me in a flurry of insecurities, smothering me. I had always known I was the least valuable Paladin who messed everything up, but being told that by my teammates hurt. I was pathetic for getting so worked up over one beatdown, I knew that, but I just couldn't keep it up anymore. I curled up into a ball, tears dripping down my face, and sobbed into the darkness that surrounded me.

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-Third Person-

Lance gave a weak smile and quickly walked out of the room. As soon as he went out of sight, Pidge whirled around, face bright red. "WHAT DID YOU JUST DO!?" She roared, taking the others aback. "What do you mean? We talked some sense into that idiot." Keith muttered, confused. "LANCE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG!" She yelled, "HE DIDN'T ALMOST KILL ME, HE SAVED ME YOU MORONS!" Her eyes were watery, "AND YOU JUST BEAT HIM DOWN FOR SOMETHING HE DIDN'T EVEN DO!" Shiro's eyebrows creased. "But he left you unprotected when he was supposed to-" Pidge cut him off. "I was the one who strayed from the plan! Not Lance!" Pidge's voice wavered, "You just automatically blamed him!" Allura opened her mouth, but Hunk cut her off. "Lance is doing the best he CAN," Hunk's face was firey red, "He has insecurities and doubts, and you just confirmed every single one of them he has!" "He didn't look very upset!" Keith argued, feeling slightly guilty. "Did you even look at his face? He was trying not to CRY." Pidge and Hunk glared at the others, "I hope you're happy with what you did." Hunk growled before grabbing Pidge by the arm and hurrying down the hall toward's Lance's room. There was silence.

"We messed up big time."

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-Lance's POV-