Fishboy

Day Nineteen

Day 19

January 20

We found out that some of the living merfolks have been released into the wild. A few are going to need surgery to fix their fins and gills. Not sure how that happened but I'm guessing some humans were more aggressive in their fishing than others. With the help of Scruffle, I've met a few of them. They look so much like the friends I left behind it almost hurt. One kept swimming up to me and looking me in the eyes. They didn't say anything at all.

In fact they didn't do anything at all other than stare at me like they've seen me before. Or like they've heard about me.

Scruffle took notice of this and kept asking why they were staring. But I couldn't really think of a good reason myself. It was odd having my own kind look at me like that. Makes me wonder if they could see through the disguise or something. Like my own kind can tell who I am but humans can't? I'm a little worried.

After making sure the other merfolk were being treated well,Scruffle took me home. For some reason though Chiyaru was in my apartment and sitting on my couch. He had papers in his hands but he wasn't letting me look at them. Whenever I signed about them, he shrugged and said that they weren't a big deal. Or that I didn't have to worry about it. Which of course made me start to worry about it. I'm not sure what they're about but they're definitely important.

Why won't he talk about them?

Daiyu thinks that Chiyaru is trying to adopt me or something like that. I kinda doubt it. Who'd want a mute paraplegic for a child? Daiyu told me that she'd want me for a little brother. And that she would be happy to have me in her family.

Ms Flufflebottom just purred as she cuddled up to me. I know that I mean a whole lot to her too. So glad our building doesn't have rodent problems. Daiyu says that cats bring dead rodents to their owners and I am so not touching a dead mouse. Ms Flufflebottom is adorable but that's my limit.

Eloni messaged me a little while ago when Daiyu was over. He seemed happy with last night and asked me to go out in a couple of weeks. I accepted. While a certain someone was squeeing,I offered him to pick me up at seven and he wrote that'd be great. Not sure what we're going to do but it'll be fun.

Oh!

Also I tried to ask him about what's going on with Nalin. For some reason,Nalin hasn't been answering any comms or the door. In fact when he tried to open the door with his spare key...it didn't work. It seemed that he had changed the locks for some weird reason. When he contacted Nalin's relatives,he found that none of them have spoken to him in weeks. Which scared him. The authorities don't seem to want to do anything about this and I'm disturbed by this.

What if he's hurt?

Or what if he's dead?

...Daiyu just asked,"What if the sky turns to fire and your nose falls off?"

Inappropriate and a little cold. She seems to think that Nalin might be just moving or he's fixing his home. Or he's an asshole and Eloni needs better friends than him. Either way she believes that Nalin shouldn't be bothered and that he'll talk to us soon. I would believe that honestly but I'm worried that she might be wron-OW! Okay she's right!

She read part of this over my shoulder and flicked my head. Daiyu says that she's not being cold but realistic. Still seems kind of cold if you ask me. Oh well. That's just how she is I guess. Fiyora was kind of like her. Except Fiyora's kind of a crybaby. I once hid one of her favorite shells from her and she cried for five hours. So since I felt guilty, I gave it back to her and found her another shell that shinier than that one. Fiyora stopped talking to me for a week after that but she did forgive me. It took a lot of begging and pleading to get her to do so but she did. Also it cost me some of my favorite shells. It was worth it to see her smile again though.

I really miss seeing that smile.

Maybe if I ever get the chance to, I can ask the Seawitch to turn her human too? Wonder if she'll be able to walk though. I mean I know that I'm never going to be able to but I wonder if she will. But then again she's happy to be a mermaid and I can't force her to be human. Even if I miss her a lot too. It's just not right.

I could probably visit her once I get a better way of visiting the beach. We can do that for as long as I'll live. Still not sure how old I am in human years either. Cuz I look sixteen but that's just my guessing. Chiyaru told me that the doctor thinks I'm nineteen years old due to how I'm built. Daiyu said that's possible. After all I could be just a seriously short short nineteen year old orphan.

She's asked about my family a few times too. Been distracting her with Ms Flufflebottom's cuteness. So far that's been working pretty good. Not for long though cuz she's getting wise to those tactics. I think I should just tell her that I had a falling out with them. Like they don't care about me and I don't care about them. Lots of humans don't always like keeping in contact with family right?

Right.

I'll have to tell Chiyaru that too as well as Eloni if he asks. It might work and then they'll stop asking about my family. Well hopefully they'll stop asking about them. Might have to make up an excuse as to why they don't want me around. Daiyu asked if they were homophobic once. I have no idea what that word means. How can you be afraid of a home? Like where else could you live if you have this fear? Hmm...oh...I asked her about that word and she told me it means they're assholes to gay people. She also said that this problem has affected many kids over the years but it's been dying out. I think Daiyu's worried I'm one of those kids that got kicked out for not being straight.

I'm not gay though. Not sure what my sexuality is honestly. Like I do adore Eloni but not in any sexual way. I just want to...well...I dunno. But I do know that I want to be at least his friend. I don't know what this is called though. I do have an interest in kissing him sometimes.

Anyway, I've told her that my family is extremely homophobic. And that's why I don't want to speak of them. She just hugged me really tightly and told me how sorry she was to hear that. That she'll also stop asking about them if I want her to. I told her yes. Well, that went easier than I expected. Hope it goes this well with Chiyaru. Though I'm not sure if he'll believe me or not. He kind of seems to know when I'm lying and might call me out on it. It wouldn't be wrong but it would present problems. Also I don't want him to be angry with me for lying.

I really value his friendship. He's been so wonderful to me. Let's just hope that he believes my lie.

Write more tomorrow,

Olwen.