Always Been You

Twenty eight (part one)

Molded

Crashed course welcome me.  Culture shock has no space for me not to deal with it.  I don't know if being in medical profession runs in our blood that I find it challenging instead.  I was introduced to varieties of area of specialization.  I think mom made this design for me suitable for her future plan in managing the hospital soon.

But I am no saint here.  I still enjoyed my life away from the pressure in my advancement course.  The smell of alcohol is really so tempting that my body is weakened only by its cellar smells.  Ah, this is my way of composing myself back again while in this robotic life.  I don't want to disappoint mom.  I want her to be proud of me like my sister.  She has given to me everything to me.  So, doing a favor she could be proud of is a pleasure to do.

"Hangover sucks! damn it!" I went straight to the bathroom no matter how this pain pulled me to stay in bed all day long.  The cold slash of water slowly washed away the lazy bone I got.  There is till a lot of things to do, I know.

Next month will be my assessment.  Mom and my sister will be here for sure.  So far,  I am confident I made it up to their expectation.  Who can beat someone who has great drive in everything he does?  No one.

I am now settled in the field of orthopedic surgery care.  I was checking on the post operative progress of one patient done with ligaments surgery.  He has been injured from basketball game in school.  So far he is responsive and due for release under physical therapy sessions.

As I am about to end with the last round, Dr. Michael approached me.  He is a cousin and a friend.  Their family settled here at sila ang kasama sa nagpapatakbo nitong hospital kung saan ako pinag training.  "I heard you will be ending your training soon?" usisa niya sa akin.  We've been friends since childhood I think.

"Yeah!" I can't help but be thrilled knowing I'll be home soon.  I missed the gang. damn!  halos di ko na sila nakakausap sa sobrang busy ng mga nalalabing araw ko dito.  Pakiramdam ko ay sinadya nila akong bugbugin sa pagod eh. Knowing mom but I can still find pleasure thru bar hopping in Paolo Matthew's way, hah!

I brought my feet towards nurse station after having completed my regular rounds while  Dr. Michael still beside me.  I think he is also done with his rounds assigned in Pediatrics.  "Congrats dude!" masayang bati niya sa akin.  Ngumiti lang ako sa kanya.  I can hear giggles from nurses as we approach the counter.  Women and their romantic excitements.  Di ko lang pinansin at itinuon sa pinsan ko ang pakikipag-usap.  I think we are on the same page.  habulin din kasi ito eh.  Di lang halata kasi suplado ang dating nito katulad.  "What are you grinning at?" litong tanong nito.

"Lunch tayo gutom na ako eh.  Hindi na ako napag breakfast kanina eh. Just coffee. Damn!"  pambalewala ko sa tanong niya.  Buti na lang nawala na ang sakit ng ulo ko after kong uminom ng kape.  Nakamdaman ko na rin pagkalam ng sikmura ko.  

"Hangover again?  Lagot ka talaga ky tita Ara niyan Matt.  Di mo naman dapat lunurin sa alak ang sarili mo.  Pambihira ka talaga."  simula niyang panermon sa akin habang patungo kami sa pantry.  

Kibit balikat lang ako sa sinabi niya.  He is always like that.  Palaging sinasabi sa akin yung- to drink in moderation.  How could I kung mahirapan siyang tigilan.  Alcoholic na yata ako.

We ordered medium cooked beefstake, some steam veggies and root beer.  Magana kaming kumain kasalo ang iba pang mga residents doctors.  Kahit papaano ay mamimiss ko ito tropang ito.  Wherever I may go, I don't fail to belong in big groups.  Nakasanayan ko na rin yung ganito kaya di na bago sa akin.  Napagkasunduan pa namin ang magkaroon ng goodboy party daw para sa akin kaysa goodbye.  Mga loko talaga itong mga 'to.  

Sabagay, mas okay sa akin yung ganito.  di mabigat sa dibdib.  Ngayon ko lang napagtanto, may pakiramdam pa ba ako?