Always Been You

Forty five

Bitchy

I was inside Café Arabella drinking my favorite caramel machiatto. Having that talk with Tita Ara helped me see things in different perspective. Hindi naman controlled ni Matthew ang takbo ng utak ni Micaela. She is a bitch and she will do everything just to get what she really wanted.

Naging maunawain ako. Sa loob ng mahigit dalawang buwan ay nagsimula ko ng mamiss si Matthew. Wala kaming kumikasyon dalawa pero nakakagulat na mas hinahanap ko ang presensiya niya.

I will always look back to the good times we had. His absence makes my heart go ponder. He still owns my heart. It only beats for him and no one else.

Indeed time heals all wounds. At yun ang nangyari sa akin. Wala naman akong makapang ano mang galit sa puso ko.

I was in the middle of drinking coffee, enjoying my coffee break when someone seated across the table I am occupying. Iniangat ko tingin sa kung sino ang umupo sa harapan ko, when a pair of brown eyes with thick eyelashes meet my eyesight. I was recollecting how familiar this woman can be. She is in rage as she looks at me focused.

Napataas ako ng kilay. Before I could recall based on her unfriendly aura, she finally spoke.
"I don't want to go around the bush. I'm Micaela. I'm telling you now to stay away from Matthew. You're ruining our relationship. We're getting married. What's get into your nutshell?" may diin ang bawat salita niya.

She like a raging fire. Ready to kill anyone along her way. But I'm not intimidated by it. If not because of my conversation with Tita Ara I might fall into her trap. My love for Matthew is not that easy to break. "Seriously? You're asking me that? You shouldn't have talked to me but to Matthew instead. That is if what you claim is true. Because you know what, it's us whom you ruined. Not the other way around!"

Kung akala niya ay madaling niya akong matakot pwes nagkakamali siya. Hindi ko siya uurungan. I have Matthew and his family backing me up.

Mas lalo nanlilisik ang mga mata niya. Her fists form into balls. Pinagdiinan niya ang mga labi hanggang sa maging manipis na ang mga ito.

"You will pay for this. You took him away from me. But he will never be happy with you. Not ever.  I know him pretty well. You can't satisfy his needs. It's only me who can do that to them. Hahanap hanapin niya yun sa akin. That only fact will slowly kill you.  Until you will surrender him to me" at sinundan niya ng malakas na halakhak.

"You're insane!" di ko na mapigilan nag siya ay sigawan. Napataas na naglalaro boses ko.  She's getting into my nerves. This woman should seek professional help.

"Yeah I am madly crazy in love with Matthew. He always made me a special woman. He adores me and I will not allow you to have him. We deserve each other.  Not you!" dinuro pa niya ako bago taas noo akong tinalikuran. She left me with a heavy heart. Hawak ko ang dibdib ko at pinilit pakalmahin ang aking sarili.

Naitanong ko tuloy sa sarili ko. Maging masaya nga kaya si Matthew sa piling ko? Hindi ko man lang mapantayan ang mga babae sa buhay niya. I'm not into sexual actions. That's why even until now, we only satisfied ourselves with kissing and cuddling. Ramdam ata niya ang pagiging asiwa ko. Or worst, he doesn't find me desirable at all. Mapait akong napangiti.

Bago pa ako magupo sa matinding kalungkutan ay insecurity ay dumating si Kaye para saluhan ako. "Grabe talaga yung nangyari sa pasyente ko. I almost lost her. I was in the middle of doing the procedure when  all of a sudden her vitals suddenly dropped. Buti na lang nakabawi naman." tuloy tuloy na balita nito sa akin. But I stayed silent.

"Hey,  what's wrong?" sita nito sa akin nung hindi ko siya tinugon.

I told her about my encounter with Micaela awhile ago and my conversation with Tita Arabella. "Ay may sayad naman pala talaga ang babaeng yun eh. Dapat naabutan ko yun dito at ako ang sasabunot sa kanya. Kala mo kung sino siya?" mataray na sambit ni Kaye. "Ang mga katulad niya ay nilalagay sa dapat kalagyan eh para wag ng pamarisan pa." himutok pa nito.

Napabuntong hininga na lang ako.  Micaela is getting desperate. Pinangalandakan pa talaga nito nag pagiging fake fiancee ng boyfriend niyang si Matthew. Nakakaawa siya. But I don't have room for understanding of her kind.  Ipaglalaban ko ang pag-ibig namin ni Matthew. No matter what.

But my insecurity is killing me. Paulit ulit na bumabalik ang lahat ng sinabi no Micaela. That bitch!