Always Been You

Seventeen

Troubled

Katatapos lang ng meeting namin with the prod department ng Vicor Records and Promotions.  Sila ang in-charge ng US tour namin this year.  We already had Asian Tour just last year.  It was a blast.  The response was quite overwhelming.  I didn't expect we could gather that much crowd. But it was a huge success. That's why we decided to make it to US this time.

Vicor Records is partly owned by our band.  We thought of having it as our bearer music company in our comeback, that's why we bought shares from it. Luckily we owned half of it.  During that time the company suffered much because of piracy and lack of great artists.

I'm actually excited about this tour.  I am looking forward of seeing her. There could be a great chance.

"Hi Pao!" It's Margie, our executive in Vicor Records and Promotions.  She is the daughter of Mr. Wilson Vicor, the owner of VRP.  I know she's hitting on me.  Medyo may pagka agressive pa nga ito.  She even once confronted Charlotte to stop getting closer to me. 

I just let them.  Wala naman  akong pakialam sa kanilang dalawa.  Sila itong lapit ng lapit sa akin.  Napagbigyan nila ako sa aking pangangailangan.  Sino ba naman ako para humindi?

"Hi there Marge.  So how was it?"  I am referring to the teleconference of their tie-up company in America for the concert.

"Yeah.  It will be next month.  They agreed upon the conditions being settled in. The contract will be finalized anytime this week."  she walked towards me. Her corporate attire is screaming of her sexy body.

"Shall we?" she said wryly. I already knew she was referring to her place. 

"Alright." at sabay na kaming lumabas ng building.  I just texted the group that I am going with Margie.

What I have in my relationship with Margie is plain casual relationship.  My friends knew about. We are in no strings attached status.  She is somehow possessive of me but she knew where my boundaries are.  We discussed it very clearly.

But she has been a good companion.  For a couple of months already, we stayed together unlike before that I only lasted for a month in every girl I am with. Sakit sila sa ulo at yun ang iniwasan kong mangyari.  She stayed by me through my rough times.

After our heated encounter, I immediately drive to the bar.  Alam na ni Margie ang ganitong set up.  My friends texted me, they are now at the Edge Club.

Masarap yung pakiramdam na I have a healthy bachelor life plus no pressures from outside.  I am just happy. Happy? When was that. 

Iisang mukha lang ang pumasok sa isipan ko. How Could I survived for years of longing her.  Napailing ako at mapait na ngumiti.  Life is a mess without her.

I don't know how to make things right.  It has been growing in complications as years passed by. 

I may enjoyed every right a man ever wished to do but I know in myself that there is no fulfillment in it.  The feeling of my enjoyment is just so temporary that every beat of my heart cries for her. 

I just dont know how to feel the real sense of happiness.  Baka hindi ito para sa akin.  Maybe I will remain hopeless and empty.

I need someone to talk to.  I called Danzel.  Sa tingin ko,  siya lang ang taong matino kausap sa ngayon.

"Hey. How are you?" I slowed down since I'm not in the mood of going to a bar anymore.  Sa dami ng gumugulo sa utak ko ngayon, hindi magandang kaharap ang mga tarantadong kaibigan ko.

"I am just here in office.  May inaayos lang ako." sagot niya na may pagkabagot.  I decided to take the right turn and drive straight to his office.  Maybe talking to him will help me pull myself in place.