Forever ~ A bullying story ~ s.m

~what. the. hell.~(chapter two)

THIS BOOK MAY HAVE SEXUAL CONTENT AND SELF HARM, i will warn you before a chapter if that is happening.
*Self harming in this chapter*
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Monday, August 15th, 2014
Meredith's POV
I hop out the plane at LAX with my drea....

My alarm Blares through my room making me fall off the bed , "What the hell" i whisper to myself while rubbing my head. oh yeah. the first day of school. yay. i turn off the blaring music and stand up. i look around the room and see my computer, Memories flash back from last night

*Warning. Self harming content*

~ I finish looking at all the hate on my instagram pictures and slam my lap book shut, it's getting harder for me to breathe. What. The. Hell. is happening to me. i lay on my floor balling. why would someone say those harsh things to me.. what did i ever do to them..
*nashgrier: You ugly stank*
*Taylorcaniff: Go kill yourself*
*Matthewespinosa: Your not worth anyone's time. just do us all a favor and end it*

Before i know it, i'm standing up and walking into my bathroom. looking in the left drawer under my makeup, i grab the razor. Should i do it? It is worth it? i think to myself as i slide down to the floor. i put the cold metal against my wrist and start.

one, for being ugly.
one, for being worthless.
one, for being alive.
and nine. for the boys.

i slowly standup.. wash off the blade my arm. hiding at the stinging, i put the blade back into my drawer and slowly walk to my bed. i get in and put the blanket on top of me

Maybe one day.. this will all get better

i think as i slowly drift off to sleep~

*END OF SELF HARM CONTENT*

as i slowly come back to my senses i realize i've been standing in the middle of my room staring at my computer for at least 10 minuets. i shake my head and walk to my dresser. i pull out some black jeans and a red sweater (outfit at top) i go into the bathroom and turn the water on, i get into the shower. i wash myself and my hair and turn the water off. i get out and dry myself off, i put my clothes on. i put on my make up and walk downstairs and see my mom passed out in the couch "oh mama" i say and put a blanket over her

See, when my dad left my mom did everything to make sure i was happy. she works two jobs and she when she is home, she's exhausted.

i walk into the kitchen and grab an apple and grab my bag and phone. "bye mama i love you" i say and walk out the door and begin my Wonderful Journey to a place i like to call hell
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Hello my beautiful peoples, I will be posting a lot of chapters tonight when i get home from school. I hope you guys like the Book so far.

Stay cool my dudes 😎

- Lauren