Forever ~ A bullying story ~ s.m

~forgetting~ (chapter 56)

Meredith's P.O.V

"where the hell is he" I say pacing back and forth. Our flight leaves in 5 minutes and Shawn is still not here

"I don't know" Cameron sighs.

"flight 743 to Orlando, Florida is now boarding" the lady over the intercom says. I groan and grab my carry-on bag, looking behind at the crowded airport. Hoping id see a brown headed boy running our way.

"c'mon, we got to get on the plane" Amanda whispers to me. I turn around and bite my lip, trying to keep myself from crying

"okay" I whisper. we give the lady our tickets, and we board the plane, once I'm seated, I watch as strangers start to fill up the seats. But Shawn is nowhere to be found...

Shawn's P.O.V

Is it wrong of me to just ditch Magcon? To just ignore everyone? Probably. But do I care? No not really.

I'm currently sitting at the kitchen table, at 6 in the morning, watching my phone get text messages and phone calls from every single one of guys.

"you should really tell one of them" my mom says as she cooks French toast. I shake my head and look down at my notebook, the one where I write all my song lyrics

"I don't want to, they will try to ask me to come, and I don't have to heart to actually tell them I'm not coming" I look down she sets down a plate of French toast in front of me

"don't worry, they'll understand" she pats my shoulder, I smile up at her and nod

"yeah I know..." I trail off. She sits down in front of me and sighs

"what happened between you and Meredith" she asks I glance up at her and shake my head

"we lost feelings for each other I guess" I lie, she scoffs and raises an eye brow

"stop lying to me Shawn, you guys were completely in love not even 2 days ago and now you're telling me you guys don't even like each other? I call bullshit" she says leaning back. I look down, the tears starting to form

"she doesn't love me any more mom, I broke up with her for something that happened when we weren't even together. I didn't realize that I lost the best thing that has ever happened to me over something that wasn't even her fault. I messed up big time" I say shaking my head.

"hey, Meredith is an understanding person, shell understand, and, there plane doesn't take off for another, 5 minutes, so if you really want to talk to her and explain things, call her, before it's too late" she says referring to my phone. I look at her and smile. Grabbing my phone, I run outside and sit on the porch. My finger hovering over her name, I decide against and click on Nash's and put the phone up to my ear. It doesn't even ring once before he answers

N: Shawn where are you

Me: Nash I'm not coming

N: what... what do you mean

Me: I mean, that I'm not coming to Magcon, I got a record deal with Island records. and I was going to start recording new songs after we got back, but I can't face her...not after what happened. I... I just need to focus on my music right now...

N: you know she didn't cheat on you. Matthew kissed her, she didn't kiss back, and Even then, Matthew didn't mean for any of that to happen, he was probably in the moment, don't be mad at them

Me: I know, I'm not mad at either of them, I just... I can't look into her eyes and see the brokenness. The brokenness I caused... just please. Make sure nothing happens to her... and don't tell the others about the record deal... let them find out on their own... and if this works out for me... and if I go on tour... just remember, you all got tickets, I love you guys, and thank you for making this possible for me.