Forever ~ A bullying story ~ s.m

~unwanted~ (chapter 62)

Meredith's P.O.V

"Meredith wake up" I hear someone say next to me as I'm being gently shaken. I groan and turn around to face Shawn

"c'mon, let's go home" he smiles at me. I sit up and rub my head. He helps me stand up and I grab the bag that had all my clothes in it

"do you need help?" he asks me as he walks me to the bathroom

"no, I'm okay. Thank you though" I smile as I walk into the bathroom. I shut the door and quickly change. I put my hair up, I brush my teeth and look at myself in the mirror.

Dark bags under my eyes. I look down to my arms, scars beyond scars lining my arms.

This isn't the girl I want to be...

I shake my head and grab the bag. I open the door and walk over to the bed. I set the bag on the bed and sit next to it. I put my shoes on and stand up. I look around to see Shawn isn't in the room anymore. I grab the bag, as Shawn runs through the door

"sorry. I had to sign papers" he says. I nod and look down at my feet.

"what's wrong" he walks up to me

"why am I like this..." I mumble

"like what?" he grabs my hands

"like this... this isn't the person I want to be" I say shaking my head.

"baby, calm down... you are perfect. Just the way you are" he wraps his arms around me

"no, I'm not. Look at me. I have scars, all over my body" I say holding out my arms. He looks down and grabs my arm. making me look up into his eyes

"you are Perfect. Yes, I wish you wouldn't do this to yourself. Next time, all you have to do it talk to someone. I don't care where I am. I don't care if were in a fight. I don't care if I'm sleeping. I don't care. Talk to me... because you don't have to do this to yourself" he kisses my wrist. I bite my lip, trying to keep the tears from falling and nod

"okay... I'll talk to you" I nod

"thank you. now c'mon. Amanda is waiting on us" he grabs my hand. I follow him out of the room and we walk to the stairs.

"come here" he pulls me closer to him, next thing I know, I'm getting picked up and he's walking down the stairs

"Shawn, I can walk down the stairs" I say. he shrugs and sets me down once we get to the bottom floor

"yeah I don't care" he grabs my hand once again and we walk over to Amanda's car. we get in the back seat and I smile at Amanda. She smiles back at me

"I want McDonalds. You guys want McDonalds? I don't care were getting McDonalds. And no, I don't care that its only 9 AM" she says as we drive away. I chuckle and lean my head on Shawn's shoulder. He kisses my forehead and rubs my thigh.

"speaking of relationships. Can you guys like stop being nasty in my car. and are you guys like back together or what" she says. I shrug and look up at Shawn to see him smirking

"no not yet. And were not even being nasty" he says.

"I heard the word yet in there" she pulls into the McDonalds drive threw

"what do you guys want" she looks at me through the rear-view mirror

"I'm not hungry" I mumble. Shawn looks at me

"get us both a sausage biscuit or something. Oh, and orange juice" Shawn says looking down at me. once Amanda starts to order he kisses my forehead