Forever ~ A bullying story ~ s.m

~not so great~ (chapter 45)

Meredith's P.O.V 

"pst Meredith wake up" I hear a deep voice say next to me. I groan and turn around and open my eyes and see that I'm face to face with a curly hair, brown eyed idiot smiling ear to ear.

"Shawn what do you want" I say running my fingers through his hair.

"you have a visitor downstairs. And I don't think I've ever been this happy to hear your attitude" he smirks

"shut up" I groan standing up. stretching, I hear a voice downstairs, a voice I missed so much. I smile at Shawn before running out the door and down the stairs

"MOM" I scream before jumping into my mother's arms. I hear her groan and chuckle

"Meredith, I am so glad you're okay" she whispers into my ear

"I know mama. I missed you" I feel the tears starting to form in my eyes so I let go and smile

"your making me get emotional" I say laughing, wiping my eyes. I look around and see Amanda's mom standing in the corner. I smile and run up to her, wrapping my arms around her neck

"don't think I didn't miss you" I say laughing. She chuckles and squeezes me.

"I missed you too" she says. I pull away and step back. Looking around at everyone

"why is everyone staring at me like that, making me a little self-cautious here" I say nervous chuckling

"oh, shut up Meredith" Amanda says stuffing a piece of pizza in her mouth. I glare at her as she sits next to me.

"oh, thank you. I really wanted pizza" I say winking as I take the other piece that was in her hand and taking a huge bite out of it.

"fucking asshole" she says. I hear a clicking of a phone, like someone just took a picture of us. I see that Nash has his phone out and smirking

"listen here Hamilton. You post that anywhere I will legitimately cut off your ball sack" I say. my mom coughs and I look at her wide eyed

"I kind of uhm forgot you were here. besides I was just kidding. I love Nashy" I say walking over to him wrapping my arms around his neck. he grunts and smiles at her

"defiantly" he says tickling my sides. Making me fall onto the ground.

"sorry" he smirks walking away.

"asshole" I say standing up.

"I have to leave now because I have to go to work early tomorrow morning but we should have a girl's day this weekend" my mom says hugging me

"that would be amazing. Bye I love you" I say hugging back.

"I love you too" she says walking away. I wait until the door is fully closed and turn to Nash

"before you say anything, I didn't post it. but I think you should post something on your social medias because somehow your fans found out about the kidnapping and you should probably tell them you're alright" Nash says handing me my phone. I look at it and see I got a text message from Nash, which was the picture, which was kind of cute, and a million Instagram and twitter notifications. I go on Instagram and look at all my notifications, most of them are comments telling me to get better and that they hope I get found soon. But some of them stand out

@B.E_li.ze_gurl53: you are such a bitch. I hope they never find you

@fries_before.guys: if they actually find her, she should kill herself

@lil_nugget: I hated her anyways. She should do us all a favor and stay gone

ouch... I look around and put on a fake smile, hoping no body realizes.

"thanks. Ill post it telling everyone" I say. everyone looks convinced other than Amanda and Shawn. I walk into the kitchen and grab a water bottle. I hear footsteps coming through one door so I run through the other run and silently sneak up the stairs, walking into my room,

🚨WARNING🚨 🚨SELF HARM CONTENT 🚨

I close the door behind me. numbly locking it. I stare at my hands for what seem like forever before finally breaking. Gasping for air I slide down to the ground. Their right... I shouldn't be here... I bet everyone was so much happier when I was gone... I lay on my side and bring my knees to my chest. I hear heavy footsteps coming up the stairs, too bad they can't get in. the doors locked. I look around the floor and see a bag sitting near my bathroom door. the bag that has all my stuff for the bathroom, also all my blades. I stand up and walk over to the bag, my thoughts drowning out the banging and the screaming that's coming in from outside my door. I pull out the little box and stare at it.

"I'm sorry" I whisper pulling out one of the blades from the box. Putting the metal on my skin, flashbacks swarm my brain;

'He smirks at me. I glare at him as he puts the metal on my wrist, cutting multiple cuts along my arm, he stands up and tilts his head

"oh. But you like that feeling. Don't you" he laughs before walking out of the room'

I'm taken out of my thoughts when I hear the door crack and break. I look down and see my thighs covered in cuts and blood. I slide into the corner of the room as I look up, my eyes meeting with Shawn's. he looks at me, then down to my legs and gasp. He slowly walks over to me, falling to his knees. I scoot closer into the wall and look at the floor

"look at me. now" he says demanding. I glance up at him to see he has tears in his eyes

"I'm sorry" I whisper surprised he could even hear me he grabs my wrists gently and pulls me closer to him.

"Shawn I'm going to ruin your clothes... the blood will stain them" I say trying to get away from him. He tightens his grip and kisses my forehead

"shhh, I don't care. Just relax, and let me clean you up" he says pulling out a towel. Gently rubbing my thighs. I hiss at the burning and squirm, trying to get out of his grip

"just... please let me help clean this up... it'll get worse if you don't clean it" he says. I can feel the brokenness in his voice so I let him clean all the blood and when he's done he loosens his grip enough that I was wiggle myself away from him. I crawl over to opposite wall and lean against it.

"I wish you'd realize how many people you hurt when you do this to yourself" he whispers. Not even looking at me. he just keeps on looking at the ground. I start to cry a little harder as I look up at the ceiling

"I should have just stayed gone. Huh? Everyone's life would have been sooo much easier" I say. I didn't expect Shawn to say anything. But what he did surprised me. he laughed.