Forever ~ A bullying story ~ s.m

~ Choices ~ (chapter 65)

Meredith's P.O.V

I knew I was dead. Or at least close to it. I could tell, the state I was in, it was dreamlike, I felt, different. I finally felt happy.

"Meredith open your eyes" I hear a voice say. it's the voice of a lady, I slowly open my eyes and see a white room, with a lady standing in the middle

this looks all to familiar

"Meredith, I didn't think I'd see you this soon" She smiles at me.

"w...where am I?" I stutter. Looking around

"You don't remember me? My name is Nevaeh" She says. that's when it comes back to me

"I'm dying, aren't I" I mumble.

"oh no honey. Last time we talked, it wasn't the right time for you to pass. This time is a little different. You have a choice, whether you would like to stay alive, or die" she sits on that same couch that was there the last time we talked. I sit across from her.

"I have to choose, to live or to die?" I ask her. she nods and smiles brightly at me.

"yes. That's how it works" she says. I think for what seems like forever before looking up at her

"what would happen... if I died. Would I stay in this room with you?" I ask. She chuckles and shakes her head.

"of course not. I'm your Guardian Angel. So, when you die, you would become someone's special angel. You decide when that person is ready to pass. Or if they need to stay alive. You'd be me, for a certain person" she smiles.

"how are you supposed to know if they're ready to pass" I ask shaking my head. This is all confusing

"you look how their life is going, you will be able to look in their future life to see. If them dying in a shooting, or a car crash, like you almost did, is worth it. but you can never show them their future life. You can only show them what would happen if they died. But never what will happen if they stay alive. Trust me, you'll know. I can tell you, I have never made someone pass, I have always given them a choice, like I'm doing for you right now" she says. still smiling.

"that doesn't seem like such a bad thing though... being someone's guardian angel" I mumble.

"before you make your final decision, let me show you something" she stands up, I stand up and follow her to the corner of the room

"I'm going to show you, all your friends, how they will be if you died" she says grabbing my hand

"wait I don't want to see that" I say jerking my hand back.

"too late" I hear her say before everything goes black. The darkness starts to fade away when I see a room, Nash's Room, I hear crying, loud crying from behind me, I jerk around and see Nash, sitting in the corner of the room with his knees up to his head. I run up to him and kneel in front of him.

"Nash..." I say. when Neveah appears next to him

"he can't see, or hear you, he can maybe feel your presence, but he won't understand" she says before disappearing again. I look back down at Nash to see he's looking down at his knee, where my hand is. I can see his eyes are all puffy. And it looks like he hasn't slept in days. I stand up and look around his room. I look on his dresser and see a pill bottle. I walk up to it and grab it, opening it, I look inside. Recognizing the pills immediately

"Xanax's, Nash what the hell" I set the bottle back down. I watch Nash stand up, making me back away from the dresser. I watch him pick up the bottle, and pour out 6 or 7 pills into his hand. He stares at them for a long time,

"Nash don't do It, that will kill you" I say walking up to him, touching his arm. he looks down at his arm before shaking his head and popping the 7 pills into his mouth.

"NO" I scream before it all goes black again.

"hello? Neveah? Someone" I say, I look around as the black fades out. And I see I'm sitting in the back seat of a car. I look up into the front seat to see Amanda, dark sun glasses on.

"what the fuck is happening" I whisper

"just watch" Nevaeh appears next to me. I watch as Amanda pulls into an empty parking lot with only one car in it. she pulls up next to the car and gets out. I watch out the window as she hands the person some money and they hand her a bag in exchange. She walks back over to her seat and gets in and pulls out a bowl, opens the bag. And starts smoking.

"what? This isn't her. why is she doing this" I look at Nevaeh with complete horror in my eyes

"when you died. Nash started considering suicide and Amanda turned into a drug addict" she shrugs. I lean back and rub my head

"there's more, I need to show you" she says. the same thing happens with the black appearing and then fading, but this time, I'm in a room I don't recognize.

"where are we?" I ask Nevaeh

"we are at Cameron's Parents, just watch" she says. I watch the door open and a dead looking Cameron walks through the door. he sits on the bed and takes a little box off the night stand. I take a step closer to see him pulling out a blade

"no Cameron" I run up to him

"remember, he can't see or hear you Meredith" Nevaeh says. I watch in terror as I watch Cameron slit open his wrists.

"can't you make him stop. Nevaeh" I step back before my back hits a wall. Once again, the room goes black, and then fades. This time, I'm standing in the middle of a club. I hear hear the music playing in the distance and there's tons of people dancing around me. but the only person I can see is Shawn, sitting at the bar. Drinking one beer after another. I slowly walk up to him and stand next to him,

"Shawn, you need to stop drinking so much" someone says. I look up and see Steven.

I knew this place looked familiar

"I can't dude, I watched this girl, the girl I was in love with. Die in front of me. she literally died saving my others friend life. I miss her so much and it's been a whole month. Steven, I can't, I will never get over it. I can't. I just can't" he says before breaking out into tears.

I watch the dude I was in love with break down in front of me. I feel the tears coming down my cheeks. The room fades away and then the white room comes back and I'm sitting on the chair with Nevaeh sitting in front of me.

"what the hell was that" I say barley over a whisper. the tears still pouring out of my eyes.

"that was some of your friends, how their lives would be if you died. Amanda starts doing hardcore drugs, not just weed. Nash ends up taking Xanax's, which ends his life. Cameron cuts himself. And Shawn gives up his dream and drinks his life away." She says as if nothing was wrong with it.

"why... why did you show me that" I shake my head

"because, I needed you to see what could happen. Now, do you want to die, and get away from this horrible thing called life or, do you want to live and be back with your friends. what will your choice be?