Meredith P.O.V
Im woken up the next morning with a pounding headache and emptiness in my heart.. why did I ever consider leaving Shawn...he's my everything and I was just going to leave him.
I pull the covers off and stand up. I go out of the room. I'm about to walk down stairs when I hear the guitar and singing coming from Shawn's room. I slowly walk to his door and listen...
"She would not show that she was afraid,
But being and feeling alone was too much to face,
Though everyone said that she was so strong,
What they didn't know is that she could barely carry on,
But she knew that she would be okay,
So she didn't let it get in her way,
Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same,
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much,
She would always tell herself she could do this
She would use no help it would be just fine
But when it got hard she would lose her focus
So take my hand and we'll be alright
And she knew that she would be okay,
So she didn't let it get in her way,
Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same,
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much, yeah.
A little too much, I said a little too much, oh
Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same,
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much yeah!
Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up,
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same,
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much"
once I hear his done singing I lean against the door, not knowing that its cracked a little bit, the door flings open and I fall onto the ground right next to his bed. I look up and his looking straight at me. I jump up and look around
"I uhm.. I... did you write that?" I say. I look at him and notice his eyes are kinda puffy and he has bags under his eyes.
"yeah.. yeah I did" he says looking down. I walk to his bed and sit down next to him. he doesn't look up at me, just sits there looking down at his lap. I run my fingers along his cheek.
"whats wrong" i ask him. he glances at me and shakes his head.
"you want to leave.. you don't to be with me anymore" his voice cracking.
"no Shawn baby.. please listen to me. I want you. I promise I do... I'm so scared.. I don't want you losing your fanbase because of me.. your so close to your dream and I'm terrified I'm gonna be the reason that doesn't happen" I say looking down at my wrists. Faded scars everywhere. who would want to be with someone like me...
"you. are the reason I started singing in the first place. you are the reason why I am who I am today, and your the reason for my happiness. Meredith. if you truly believe that I'm gonna let some fake fan ruin what we have. then you don't know me at all. I love you. I love everything about you. I love what we have. and I'm never going to think differently. I know I have fans that aren't happy about us. and I have fans who, no matter what, is always hopefully going to support me. don't you ever let some person get in your head like that. its not worth the consequences" he says pulling me onto his lap.
"I love you too Shawn...but what if you never get a record deal.. and its because of me.." I whisper. he smiles at me.
"is that why I already have offers for 3 different ones?" He smirks. I look at him and smile
"Shawn. thats amazing oh my god I am so happy for you" I say wrapping my arms around his neck.
"are you done being mad at yourself for no reason?" he says smiling. i nod and kiss his cheek.
"now, lets go get some breakfast. then you can come back and get ready for our date" he smirks and stands up
"uh Shawn are you gonna put me down" i laugh.
"nope" he says walking out the room.
"i swear to god if you drop me and i fall down these stairs" i say griping the collar of his shirt he smirks at me
"and what would you do if i did" he raises an eyebrow. i look around and see that were now in the kitchen,
"you'll never know since you didn't drop me" he smirks at me and drops me. i scream and brace myself for the impact. but before i hit the ground strong arms wrap around me and picks me up. i open my eyes and see Shawn smirking.
"fuck you" i say getting out his grip and going to grab an apple
"when and where babygirl" he smirks.
"we could right now but you playing" I laugh.
"wait what do you me..." he starts
"oh nothing, but gotta go get ready for our date" I interrupt him and running out the kitchen. I hear him groan as I run up the stairs. I go to Amanda room and walk in
"HEYY BITCHHH" I yell. I see her and Taylor on her bed making out
"EW OH GOD OKAY. JUST FINISH WHAT YOUR DOING THEN COME TO MY ROOM I GUESS YOU BIG NASTYS" I scream covering my eyes. I go to run out the room but I run into the wall. I finally find the door and walk out. i shake my head and go into my room and into my closet .
"what is so important that you had to walk in without knocking" Amanda says walking into my room.
"i have a date tonight" i smirk holding up two outfits
"AWHHH OKAY OKAY OKAY UHM UHM UHM" she screams inspecting the outfits
"he said to dress casual but comfortable.. whatever that means" i laugh
"OOO I GOT THE PERFECT OUTFIT" She screams running out of the room. i wait about 30 seconds before she comes running in throwing clothes at me
"put these on" she says.
"i think your more excited then i am" i laugh. i change into the outfit and look at myself in the mirror.
"YESS BITCH THATS THE PERFECT OUTFIT. now COME HERE SO I CAN DO YOUR HAIR AND MAKEUP" She says pulling my arm into the bathroom. after about an hour she's finally done and its only about 5 minutes until me and Shawn are supposed to leave.
"i'm so scared" I say scratching the back of my neck
"why are you scared" she says confused.
"i don't know.. i just am" i whisper
"trust me. you'll be fine. just relax. but its time. go get em" she says handing me my phone and pushing me out the door. i walk downstairs and see Shawn's already waiting for me
"you ready beautiful?" he says wrapping his arm around my shoulder
"yup, lets go" i smile
why do i feel like something is going to go very wrong tonight...
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