NO SIGNAL FOUND [RE-WRITING]

the manual for self destruct

A/N: possible trigger warning

playing tic tac toe and russian roulette
on your skin
setting fire to your useless mind and pouring
gasoline on your tongue
cold blood pours over even colder skin and
boils in your heart

tears mix with rain and freeze
when they fall at your feet
the air you breathe in and out turns
to poison
there's a void in your eyes down to your chest
and you swallow stones to keep it all inside

you tie rope to your thoughts and
balance on your toes
run sharp things along your body
just to feel something real
eat metal and taste the barrel of a gun on
your tongue, unloaded

your veins drown in feeling and your blood stream turns to medicate medicate medicate
shove pills down your throat for breakfast and
consider the calories
count your thoughts as you lay in bed
stop at a thousand and it's almost morning

visit your favorite place
feet dangling as you look past the edge
you wonder what they would all say
decide today won't be the day and yesterday
was too late so try again another day

10.02.17
3:27 pm