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a list for you

a list for you

1. i don't love you because you're all that i have, i love you because you're all that i need

2. inside of my ruined body, i think you see the beauty that i cant and was almost convinced that no one ever could or would

3. i love the small things, the way your smile forms, that gap between your teeth, the sharp yet soft trail of your jawline and the way your heart strings stay aligned with mine, i've never met you but you're the most beautiful person i'll ever know

4. i feel bad for the people who can't experience your love, the love that you give me will never be wasted

5. i found a decent sized love inside of us, you take it and amplify. i'm full, overflowing, my heart tips but i don't feel dizzy. i feel the rapture, with this, you atone me

6. i like to believe that you are everything i have ever known and everything i have yet to learn

7. you are that erubescent golden hour, i blink once, twice at the sunlight pouring from the inter coastal space tucked neatly in all the cracks of your alluring stone statue

8. those eyes speak volumes rested upon layers and layers without a single syllable falling from the sheen of your lips

9. is it okay to yearn for the sunsets reflection in your eyes? i'd like to assume that the tide slows down as our hearts beat, an immaculate moment in time

10. comfort stretches over the two thousand miles standing in between us, i have a home with you, here and there. you have a home with me, far and near

11. you are carefully carved of eroded wood, something not of your worth with lines purposely convoluted. all the years of sunlight basking and soaking into your skin, i hope someday i can absorb a bit of the heat, the light, a balanced transaction between you and me. i'll give as much as i take

12. i know this is hard but it's more than worth it to wake up and feel a physical representation of home that isn't made of wood and brick but rather arms and a heartbeat

13. all these parts of me that have been torn open and left empty, i have started to believe that this void was meant for me to fall endlessly in order for me to fall intentionally into a pit that you have started to fill

14. i was meant to go missing, if i had not been lost, you would not have found me

15. there is a large victory in waking up in a world where you exist and an even bigger one where i know you thrive for me and i, for you

16. i feel homesick for a place i've never been to, i can only imagine the fluorescent lights flickering, such a sad source of light when you're the amber sunbeams coasting through the windowpane i wish to idle in

17. love isn't this insurmountable thing that you must squander in order to conquer great things, love is when you touch my heart with unsteady fingers, i never worry or flinch at your caress. love is when you read between the lines and understand every piece of me. love is when i would wait, patiently for you, whether it be just days, centuries or eons. love is believing that i'd find you in another life even if reincarnation seems like a silly concept made up by hopeless romantics in hopes of getting a second chance at this. love is greeting your mistakes and easing your mind when you falter, love is soothing the itch you just can't scratch

18. love is mustering the courage to go against the odds of losing everything in hopes of gaining nothing but the sensational reminder everyday that to have you, is to have the world and everything that comes with it

19. love is a drug i'll never have to wean myself off of, the endless supply you offer is intangible and it comes clad with a lifetime of choices i'll never regret as long as you're by my side

20. you are the best part of me, everything i've ever wanted and more. for that, i wish to be the growing light, forevermore

for AMA:
december 24, 2018
6:58 pm