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know i shouldnt go

telling me you won't let go
and unraveling put fingers
until we're wrapped up in a pinky promise
you never really lied
you just didn't hold on tight enough

i shake with feeling
as you touch me
with promises wrapped under your skin
i can taste it, really
the breaking in my veins

the ugly in beauty
my fingers brushed along the
scar on your back and the bumps
in your spine.
our touch was b e a u t i f u l

thighs pressed into the bones
protruding from your hips,
my lips crashing into your teeth as i try
i try to get closer to you
do you feel the same?

i've done this before
left, without a single thought
i can do it again, can't i?
holding my tongue i flinch
at the smile you give me

sometimes i wish i couldn't
i mean, i wish i couldn't
watch your smile bright up the room
watch you keep a balance
between the two of us

i remember all you did
the feeling of your hands on my
legs, fingers on my thighs
the burning look in your eyes
the desire lining your lips in the
middle of your apartment

i remember all you did
the hunger in my heart
sparking in my mind as the dots connected
my fingers pausing from searching
time and time again
love me leave me i plead, please

i remember it all
and i wish i couldn't

9:49 pm
1.21.18