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deep down inside

the thing is that i was hanging
onto the fact that i wasn't falling slowly
i wasn't pretending to ignore
how i was drifting away.

suddenly one day
i woke up in a dark gray
i keep quiet to ignore the fact
that everything i say
will jump right over your head

forget but don't forgive
that all these paper cuts can't be paper-clipped

numbness doesn't exactly
feel like nothing
atoms jump together to
forget their broken lover

my heart is a bottomless pit
taking all those who wish to jump
drowning in self doubt
is the only way to go out

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