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he loved himself more than he loved me

i guess i should've known by
the way you introduced yourself
as if the sound of your own voice
excited you

the amount of times you
brushed a hand through your hair
i mistaken it for
you wanting to look good for me

i've come to the conclusion
that every time
i said i loved you
you only smiled because
you realized others
can be in as much love with you
as you are with yourself

if i scrolled through your phone
how many pictures of you
would there be?
of other girls, of you and me?
i could answer you one,
it would be none.

so you see
empty is the way you left me
you're full, is the way i watched you go

i guess that's the question
isn't it?
did you ever even love me?

1.15.18