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nights like these|days like these

you know
it's nights like these
where i don't want to die anymore

they are the nights where i'm bending my fingers back as far as they can go just to feel the pain, pinching myself to realize that this is real

they are the nights where i want the world to feel my pain, i want to give back exactly what i was given, all there is is pain pain pain

they are the nights where i want to set fire to my thoughts, my desk, my bed, my room and all things belonging to me, i'm already in pain, what's a little more

they are the nights i drag my wounds across the sharpest objects i can find and go out into the world just so everyone can see that i'm not okay im not okay

THESE ARE THE NIGHTS I CURSE THE CLOUDS THE MOON THE STARS THE OXYGEN SUFFOCATING ME THE BOYS I LOVED THE GIRLS I LOVE THE PEOPLE I ACHE FOR

THESE ARE THE NIGHTS ILL PULL THE CLOUDS AWAY FROM THE MOON AND BLOCK THE STARS WITH MY FINGER TIPS AS I GAZE AT THE OBJECT HANGING LOOKING ALL LONELY, why so lonely darling?

THESE ARE THE NIGHTS I TAG THE STARS WITH BULLET HOLES AND PICK A FIGHT WITH THE CLOUDS VANISHING BEFORE I CAN EVEN LIFT A HAND, THREATEN THE MOON FOR LOOKING SO CONDESCENDING. i'm trying here, world, i'm trying.

and then the day comes and i apologize to the sun, ask him to pass on the message before i see him later. tell the stars i've missed them and breathe in the clouds, letting them flood my judgement

the day comes and i apologize. i apologize, im trying here, i'm trying.