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the art of online love

i updated you
on my current state today
and i could've lied,
telling myself i'm slowly
getting over you

i updated you
on the things that have changed
ever since you moved away
and i could've easily lied,
saying this isn't as hard
as i thought it would be

i updated you
with a picture of a shirt
i bought when i went out
shopping today,
and i didn't want to tell you
the amount of times i tried to make my collarbones look nice just for you

i updated you
with simple words on a screen
keeping those three words
off of my keyboard
afraid of the day that
you won't say - type
it back

i updated you
with a deadline in mind
to leave you before valentines
afraid of what i might find.
an empty apartment
empty mailbox and an empty heart
don't come back for me

i updated you
with a plan in my hand
sitting in my palm are the pieces
of me i slowly earned back - took back
and i hope that you don't realize
they're gone until me as a whole
is far out of sight

i updated you
with tears in my eyes
a weary heart
and cold skin in an even colder bed
i thanked you for not face-timing me
tonight, for the fear of you seeing
the tear stains and coming
to the conclusion that it's true
i'm leaving you soon