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ethereal v.1

i find it hard
to fall asleep at night
with you still on my mind

you say 'goodnight, i love you'
so effortlessly as if
the words don't mean a thing

and as i lay in my
disheveled sheets
the city bustling with life

i think of all the things
i could have responded with
but settled for three words

part of me wants to rush
at you with a bundle
of words - tied together with emotion

the other wants to reach out
and wrap a strand of your dark hair
around my aching finger

i want to run my
hand along your 'too pale for this town' skin
as you like to call it

but i have to pull back from
your arms, pull my head
back from the slope of your neck

the crooks and crannies of your
collarbone look too good
to not rest my lips across

and my rosy cheeks tend
to turn strawberry red
when you brush past me

the scent of you
never too overpowering
but sometimes, it's just so overwhelming

you're so serious, in a
completely humorous way
oh my dear, loving you is second nature

and all that's between us
is the tension i created
the line i drew

i want to step over it
run my fingers over the dirt
and wonder, what line?

10-12-16