you ask me every day"are you okay?"
ill say
"its just the same"
and you'll look away,
cant say i blame you (i blame you i blame me)
how do i explain the call
i keep getting from your hometown?
every time i pick up
they s h y a w a y
how do i explain
sitting at the end of my driveway
considering
j
u
m
p
i
n
g
in front
of my neighbors 4 by 4?
i cant do that to someone
and i cant do it to myself
so i go back inside (go back inside go back inside) and
pray for pain
(suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide)
you were dumb
for believing me
when i said i was fine (FINE FINE FINE FINE FINE)
yet i was dumb for
thinking you'd
stick around (stick around stick around stick around)
how do i explain
biting off the skin
on my fingertips (stop it you're hurting yourself)
and crying when it bleeds? (but i cant)
d
r
i
p
or the clothing pin
i stick up under
my veins?
"have you cut?"
"no" (liar liar liar liar)
but i've done other things
how do i say
i've been trying to
kill myself every day (tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow)
i'm only waiting for
my body to waste away (wash away go away waste away)
1.16.18
1:00 pm
there is so much goddamn pain
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