NO SIGNAL FOUND [RE-WRITING]

local teen falls

i'm d e f O R m E D
can't you see?
i bet god had big plans for me
even he is ashamed
looking down on me
as i stand 3 inches from
jumping off my balcony

won't you look at me?
even god will show up at my trial
"LOCAL TEEN JUMPS TO FINAL LAST PLEA"
look at me look at me

you saved up all that compassion mom
for my sister, far worse than me
i always let everyone down, right?
i should stick to my plan of six feet underground, right?

no matter what i do
at this point i just wanna say goodbye
is that alright?

saying sorry is a few years too late
i guess you didn't hear me
over your bill shuffling
when i said i need help mom
i need help again

i can't say i blame you when you
point fingers at my pill dosage
and teenage hormones
it's always my fault
being the only one
to blame tonight

my skin never looked this clean
i think just maybe i was always meant
to have scars and wounds
and gaping holes
in places loved one tore me apart

i just don't know if these things heal after someone's dead