Knight in Sneakers

Chapter 32 'Not yet.'

Entry 25

5th October, 2016.
Wednesday
7:45 a.m

Aaron Demarcus Cortez.

I walked out of the house with my mom yelling behind me.

"You better not come home late tonight also! If I smell liquor, I'll kick you out."

I rolled my eyes and casually got into the car. I have always liked drinking and I'm just doing it a little more often now cause it's fun, it keeps me happy and makes me forget about all my other problems. But others believe I drink cause I'm too sad or heartbroken. Well, they are not completely wrong cause my life does suck at the moment, but I believe I can lead my life in my own way and handle my own situation. I know liquor isn't the solution, but it does keep me distracted from all the unnecessary problems.

Last week was horrible and this week was even more horrible because Clarke accepted to go out with Xavier when he asked her out in front of us. I just needed more time before I could solve my issue with Clarke, but then this horrible event follows it, adding to my growing list of problems. That horrible, unsettling feeling inside my stomach started haunting me again when I thought about their date. I was dreadfully waiting to see what will happen on Friday.

I mean, did she honestly forget about us so soon?

My eyes kept wandering to where she was wanting warming up with the girls team. She was running next to her partner, Chelsie. She stopped running suddenly and erupted into laughters while looking at Chelsie, who obviously would have cracked some joke. Her eyes and her smile are something that I didn't mind admiring the whole day.

Should I honestly get over her?

We all decided to go and get some ice cream after practice, I was hoping they wouldn't invite Clarke, but they did. I was sitting in my car ready to leave when I found few girls get into Clarke's with her. I really couldn't stand being around her without wanting to be the way I want to be with her. I couldn't expect myself not hold her familiar comfort against my chest when she stood five feet from me.

Just to hold her one more time.

I cannot help but want to stay close enough around her so I could at least take a small whiff of her classic Clarke scent. I don't know what it was, vanilla, coco, berries, whatever the hell it was, it was intoxicating.

She smells so damn good.

I couldn't expect myself to control my urges to kiss her all the time. Now that I know how it feels, it's even harder to let it go.

I don't even want to let anything go when it's about her.

We all entered a cafe downtown that we usually go to. We sat down in two huge booths and started ordering, probably the whole menu. Clarke was sitting in front of me with Elsa and Dan beside her. She was laughing at something they had said and for a second I found myself lose in that smile again. I quickly looked away when Kim gripped my arm, waking me up from daydrean. I gave her a lazy smirk while she returned a tight smile hiding her glare perfectly well. Suddenly a ringtone interrupted us, Clarke quickly stood up and excused herself. She walked out of my hearing distance and returned a minute later or two, with a grim face.