Knight in Sneakers

Chapter 43 'Saved From Misery.'

Entry 37

12th October, 2016.
Wednesday
6:17 a.m

Clarke Augustan

Looking at my small pink Nokia phone brought me more sadness than I was already experiencing. I had numerous missed calls from Hedge, Leon, Mike, Franz, Richie, etc. by the time I had reached home last night. It was too late by then to even think about returning their calls. I was already curled up on my couch in my very lonely silent house. Mike's team and Franz's team left the same night, so I didn't want to call them up and disturb them. In all truth, I was just really pissed off and hurt at them for leaving me, maybe if they had taken me with them, I wouldn't have had to go that ice cream parlour in the first place. Leon came home and tried cheering me up. Apparently Mike asked her to check on me. So here I was, dropping Leon home before going to school. Leon did her best to take my mind off things, she thought the real reason behind my sadness was Mike's departure without me to Milan, and I let her believe that because I wasn't really in the mood to talk about Aaron and lose my senses.

I tried to keep my mind free from Aaron but all my attempts failed. Somehow all my thoughts travelled back to him and only him. I didn't even know what the status of my position was right now.

Will he ever forgive me?

Am I still working for The Cortez or am I getting transferred?

But the threat isn't over yet.

What if Aaron says he wants me replaced?

He should at least let me continue with the mission even if he doesn't want to do anything with me.

The thoughts were killing me together with my nightmares. Due to my sudden sadness, the nightmares were even worse than before. It scared Leon for a good two hours before she decided to call Mike for help. His phone was unreachable.

"I'm so sorry about last night. I was just-"

"Clarke, honey, you have nothing to be sorry about. I was just scared that you were hurting real bad. If you want to distract yourself or go hang out, call me okay? I'll be here. And please do get the right help for your nightmares. They aren't healthy."

"I'll make sure I do. Thank you, Leon. Love you."

"Love you too, babe. Bye. I'll make sure Mike calls you." Leon still had no idea about Aaron or the actual reason for my breakdowns. I let her think what she wanted to. After practice I rushed towards my locker in search of Aaron. I looked around and found another brunette instead.

"Hey, Clarke."

"Hey, Dan. Do you know where Aaron is?"

"Haven't seen him at all. Maybe he is absent. Is everything alright?" He asked me with concern at the obvious worry in my voice.

"He isn't absent very often, is he?"

"Not often but nothing to worry about. Normally when he feels lazy in the morning, he just doesn't attend school." Dan shrugged as he replied. I nodded back and pretended to be calm but I knew he wasn't buying it. I wouldn't have been so worried if it wasn't for the fact I knew what happened the previous night. I knew exactly why he didn't come today to school.

He didn't want to see me.

Before Dan could see the tears that were forming without my consent, I excused myself and rushed outside towards my car. I reached home and quickly changed into casuals before rushing back to my car so I could leave to my next destination.