#Namjoon's point of view #
...... I ran away...
Like actually ran away....
I wonder what everyone's doing... I hope Ashlyn isn't trying to find me... God, I wish I couldn't see that. My face is hot... God-just stop thinking about it!
I'm in the middle of no where just starring, everything... Hurts. There's too much going on at once... Jin's gone, I can't stop thinking about Ashlyn, and I can't get through my unchanging depression...
So what if I'm a grade-A student, I'm a good son with a decent face. Nobody understands except the person I can't even see anymore and the person I don't even understand myself. I wanna be happy with myself. That I'm not living life just to get through it.
I don't want to live under strict, un-living conditions, yet I submit to them easily. I want to change myself so I can make myself happy. I wanna tell Ashlyn my feelings.... Yet something is straining me to do so.
Maybe... I should run away for good... I have the money, and the smarts I can get a decent job, I've been considering maybe writing books. I could stay at my.... Well I can go to my grandfather. Nobody visits him these days except my mother and me.
I think I just need time to myself...
I'll make sure to tell others I'm okay so they know I'm not kidnapped, and, I'll make sure Ashlyn knows I'm fine...
Yeah... This is my way of finding myself...
Sorry for my absence, softball season started and we've had games every week, so I haven't been able to focus on writing.
But I'll try and update more as soon as I get the time.
Also, I thinking this story is close to it's end. I'm thinking about a squeal.
What do you think?
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Fanfiction"Is it wrong to ship all my friends together? Pft, of course not......" (first time writing, so don't expect it to be something well written, I tryㄒ-ㄒ )
