All is Fair in Love and School (COMPLETE)

:) 8- Goodness, We're Sad (:

"Stop right there!"

"Never!"

"I've had enough!"

"No!"

"Seriously, what is wrong with you!"

"Wait what? I thought we were just being funny," I say, now confused.

"I am being anything big funny! What is your goddamn problem?"

"I don't have any problems that I know of," I laugh, uncomfortably.

"You mean that avoiding James is not a problem?" Stef questions me.

"No. This is perfectly sane."

"I never said it was insane."

"Shit. I'm doing it on purpose!" I exasperate to my friend. 

"Aha, I knew it!" She points her finger at me with a big smile.

"You got me," I put my hands up in mock surrender and look down to the floor.

"Why? And don't you dare lie," Stef looks at me sternly, knowing what I was about to do.

"I'm avoiding him because of what happened the other day. He knows that we talk about him 'in that way' and so I just can't confront him after all these old feeling things were brought back up," I explain to her, not once looking in her direction.

I was so stressed about steering clear from James. It felt so good to finally tell someone the trouble I was going through, and them caring enough to listen. "Oh Lucy, answer me one question though: aren't you the one that's actually making things awkward?"

"No. I'm trying to avoid the awkwardness," I shake my head, although still thinking of my answer as if it could be wrong.

"Think about it. By avoiding it, you only made it worse. You caused this and maybe you should go fix it."

I sit there, pondering over the words Stef just said. "Fuck, you're right. God, I'm an awful human and friend. How could I do that to James? I want to still be friends with him and I pushed him away. Why did I do that?"

Stef interrupts my rant, "Exactly, why did you?"

I hadn't really thought about it. Deep down I feel like I know the answer but I'm not ready to dig that deep and accept anything. Not yet, anyway.

"Call him. Visit him. Do something so he thinks that you were just PMSing because, dang woman, you were mean," Stef's lips curl in a smile.

"Ok ok, you're right. The girls are about to get here though so later," I push back yet another awkward encounter.

And this encounter will actually be awkward.

-*-

"Wow, one week that we don't get together and there is more tea to spill than at the Boston Tea Party," Grace exclaims.

"We're just busy, girl. You should be proud that we are building a life for ourselves," Alex laughs with Grace.

"Goodness, we're sad," I join in on the laughter.

Stef joins in as well and we all continue having a good time. It's Stef's turn to host our weekly girly gang get together. The girls of the group get together once a week to spill the beans of our boys and some other gossip we've heard. I don't talk much, I'm usually outcasted since nothing has happened to innocent Lucy.

"Are we gonna have to start inviting Lily to these things soon?" Grace asks, looking at me.

Stef nudges me in the arm with her elbow, "Oh, I would assume so. It's been a little more than a month that they've been 'talking' or whatever they do."