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Update on Monday ^^

I will update soon on Monday, just letting you guys know!

And I need some advice if you don't mind...

So today, something happened with my friends. Um let's name them...

El and Mu why not?

So, I was playing video games with El and Mu because I joined. Every other day, I played with them and today, I just didn't feel like it.

I was online on Xbox but in reality, I was playing chess with my grandpa or doing something else.

So, when I came to play, I just wanted to play cuphead instead. And this is what happened:

Mu and El are saying I'm a bad friend, jerk, selfish, idk other names?

I don't care since I've been called names my whole life lol

So I 'ignored' them the whole day today practically since I didn't want to play with them. But they say to play with them since it's so so so 'rare' they get on. They're parents are strict I guess according to them and they say how they want to play with me and I don't feel like it.

Am I really a bad friend? I don't really want to stay bad terms with them...

But then again, I rather be alone then be friends with anyone. Really, I do.

I mean, I wouldn't hurt people with my mean personality since I tend to be extreme sometimes and I don't notice, there wouldn't be any guilt, and I wouldn't have to lie.

Hmm

Actually, I prefer to not be friends with anyone at all.

It's better.

I guess that's why I created a Wattpad Account, to not be left out? To be around my readers and people that are like me?

Heh, that's really weird though.

I tend to overthink things a little too far.

Hmm I am a bad friend in some ways and I don't really deserve them.

Heck, even G. He's awesome!

But, I guess we'll make up at school and everything will be all right.

So, actually..

I'm not okay.

I never really put my feelings out there on the spot.

I want people to notice me and understand me for once.

I don't realize when I hurt others and am scared of the outcome of it.

I have friends that probably won't last forever. Maybe G will? But who knows...

G is probably the only friend who is going to the same school afterwards and the others are going to another school.

New friends.

My mom, grandpa, brother, friends, even myself said.

Delightful.

Not really.

Bullies?

Possibly.

Do I care?

A lot, but people think I don't since I put a shell around myself and my heart. People who get too close to me end up going back to the start.

I don't tell anyone my problems since it sucks.

So do I want someone in my life that will actually care and be there with me through thick and thin?

...

Yes I do. I want someone in real life to give me a hug, say it's okay, and just listen for fucking once.

I like being there for everybody since it makes me feel better. It makes others smile and seeing them like that makes me happy.

Making people laugh means everything to me.

So...

I just want someone..

No.

A true, friend that I want in my life,

To be there for me and I'll do the same.

But it's hard opening up. It's really hard. Harder than you think.

I'm not strong as people think I am. I'm weak, I'm very weak inside. I cry easily, so that's why when I'm mad, I just turn around and dry my tears quickly.

Don't people get the signs?

I don't care if it's just one person.

If they are able to be there for me as well...

I'll be happy and do everything.

'I'm fine lol'

Can mean so many things so don't fucking just say

'Okay see ya' or 'okie'

If someone just said, no you're not you're lying.

Then my shell will be broken and I'll probably tell you..

So please...

Just look at me and listen. I don't need no advice, I just want someone to listen.

...

Welp I just poured my feelings and problems into the internet and I surprisingly don't mind.

It's probably because no one from real life reads my books. It's fine I guess.

Anyways, didn't mean to get so emotional there 😅

Update will be on Monday and yeah.

See ya 👋