Thank You.. (Aaron x Reader) SLOW UPDATES!

You know what?

You know what I hate about myself?

Everything.

Just everything.

Once I went to school with my hair down because I don't usually do that and even with it up and down, it doesn't change the way my face looks. Disgusting.

I got compliments that day I remember.

Even my teacher said she liked my hair down.

To be honest, the two reasons I did that was because,

I wanted to do that for a long time. Just have my hair down and not have people be surprised.

And

It's selfish yeah but, hear other peoples' opinion about it.

But at the same time, I'm just scared I'll get weird glances or people will point it out.

It's ridiculous yeah but,

I can't help it.

But that's not important.

I just felt really irritated, exhausted, and didn't want to talk to anyone when I came home.

And I just feel really irritated and upset.

Of course, no one else notices and just thinks I'm tired.

The next thing I know, when I'm in the bathroom, I have tears in my eyes and I want to cry.

But I didn't want to let that happen.

Because

I don't want to cry anymore like an idiot.

Hopefully, it'll be really hard for me to cry and I'll just be fine.

But the thing is,

Whenever I see my friends upset, sad, angry, whatever,

I feel useless. I can't do anything about it but ask,

"Are you okay?"

"Are you sure?"

Because..

I can't just give them a hug and say, "It'll be fine."

I just can't do that. Instead, I just wait until they're okay again, and give them some space.

Like today, G was suddenly mad after the class finished.

All I could do was ask, "What's wrong?"

But I know him. He could yell and say, "Go away!" Or "Nothing!"

If he wanted to.

So I don't think he heard me when I asked him that since I was so quiet.

And I felt bad.

He was good after like 20-25 minutes.

But if I could,

I would trade my happiness just so my friends aren't sad or upset or stressed.

Actually,

I would trade my happiness for everyone.

If it means that someone or people will be happy and instead for me to feel miserable, sad or upset,

I would do that.

Because anyone deserves to be happy,

More than me.