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Little Story

I thought why not you know? I'm already heartbroken lmao. Jk (Maybe)

I miss you every single time I don't get to see you. Every single moment I try to at least spot your long, brown straight hair or your pretty face. Sometimes I don't even realize I'm doing it.

Whenever I see you I get lost in thought and my heart starts pounding. Even if it's just at the sound of your name, I always get excited and look up to find another person named the same name as you.

I can't explain this feeling at all because..

It's not like I wanted to feel like this for you anyway. I just suddenly think about you for no reason and your face just pops up while I'm doing whatever I'm doing. Sometimes I don't even know how it happens.

I overreact and over analyze every single thing and it drives me crazy. You drive me crazy.

I see things both online and in stores and just think "She would like this." You're constantly what I think about and as I get to know a little more about you, I find it adorable. Even if it's taking off your shoe for no reason in the dark or singing to yourself.

I keep thinking of fantasies and scenes that never will probably happen with you in it and then I realize, I haven't been paying attention to what my teacher was saying..

Sometimes I write your name in cursive or even do doodles of you when I'm bored in class. It's weird, I'm weird, but I can't help it.

Every single little action you do makes my heart race and whenever you come into view, my world lights up and I forget what I was thinking about.

You make me nervous and make me feel embarrassed. You're the only person who makes me feel this way.

I remember one time you were crying and I couldn't even ask if you were okay or what's wrong since..

Your friends already beat me to it and I was scared you probably wanted to be alone. So, I just hoped you would get better. 

You don't ever text me first and that's okay, I don't care..

..But I do seem to care about a lot of things when it comes to you.

I know I never had a chance to begin with since you deserve so much better than me. Honestly, who am I to tell you to talk to me or even become my friend?

Yeah, it crushes my heart whenever I don't have the courage to even wave a hello to you or when I see how close you are with anyone else.

I love everything about you. From your smile to how much of an awesome artist you are.

When you smile I see your braces and how you have such a beautiful laugh. It just makes me smile.

Even if you're without your glasses and other people say "What the hell." Well, I just find you adorable.

Your art is truly awesome and I could never ever draw that good but, I know your art is how it all started with my feelings for you.

I keep telling myself

"I don't care."

"I don't like her."

"I don't want to talk to her."

"She doesn't want to talk to me."

"She hates me."

Everything, just everything.

And I denying it over and over until I just hope one day it'll be gone forever.

Maybe it's better if I just give up and don't try to text you or try to have the courage to say hello.

But, I still keep hoping that you'll smile at me and say "Hi." Or anything because, I remember ever small memory with you in it.

But I at least want to give your your birthday present in May and be done with it.

Then, hopefully I'll stop and I'll move on, even if that gift costed me a lot.

*Sigh*

I really

Really

Really

REALLY

Like you..