I'm Gonna Love You Through It

Part 53 - Final Part

I’m Gonna Love You Through It

Part 53 

8 years later….

*Justin’s POV*

“DAD!!” Bentley yelled through the house.

I sighed and got up, “What Bent?”

“Can you read me mommy’s story again?” he asked looking at me with hopeful eyes.

After the funeral, i was going through her thing and I had find a diary. It had everything that she had ever done. From age 14 to the day she died at age 19 she wrote everything. From time to time, I would read the diary to Bentley to let him know more about his mom and how much she really loved him. Of course there were some parts that I left out like the rape and the kidnapping but those were thing that an 8 year old didn’t need to know. Maybe when he was older I would explain to him what had happened with that but for now, I told him the same thing we had told our friends and family.

“How about a read something else? It’s from your mother.”

His face lit up and he followed me into my office in the end of the hallway.

He sat in the chair in front of my desk, where his mother had sat so many times before. It was amazing how much he looked like her. It was like the male version of Selena.

I pulled out my drawer and grabbed the letter that sat in there.

“I found these a few weeks after your mother passed. I read mine often but I never opened yours. Would you like me to read it to you?” I looked up at him as he nodded his head.

I took it out of the envelope and I immediately felt a tear run down my face at the sight of her handwriting.

“Dear Bentley,

I know that when I had died you were too young to understand what was going on. You probably don’t even know who I am. But I wanted to let you know that I love you. You were a little gift sent from heaven to your father and I. Even though I’m not there, I am there. I’m watching over you. I’m there when you need a friend and you have no one else to turn to. I’m there when you feel alone. I love you so much and I hope that you never forget me. I love you. I’m watching you.

Mom”

I look up to see Bentley in tears, “Son, come here.”

He slowly go up and walked over to me. I pulled him close and held him tight. “Your mother loved you very much. From day one, she loved you. And she still loves you. Like the letter said she’s with you even if you don’t see her. She will always be in your heart.”

“I miss her, dad,” he whispered to me.

I tightened my hold on him, “Oh buddy, I miss her too.”

People told me that as time went on that the hole in my heart would heal, but even after 8 years of her being gone, the hole was still there. No one was ever going to fill it. I don’t want anyone to. I knew that there was no one person in the world who could fill her spot.

All I had to do now was wait. Wait for my turn. I knew that when it was my time, I would see her again.I would hold her in my arms again and tell her loved her.

And she was right,she was still here. I felt her. I may be crazy and I guess that’s okay, but I knew she was happy. I could feel it. And I knew she wanted me to be happy too.

I had to go on and live the life that she would want me to. That was the only thing that got my through my crazy life.

I knew that there was nothing I could have done. I did what I also told her I would do. I loved her through it.