Shawn's pov
She looked so beautiful in that white dress. I couldn't take my eyes off of her. She walked down the isle next to her dad, smiling at me. They finally approached me and her dad laid y/n's little hand in my bigger one, whispering in my ear "take care of her, Shawn!" . I nodded and after the long speech of the priest and our 'I do's' it was finally time for our first kiss as a married couple. I turned to y/n, a big smile on both our faces. I laid my hand on her cheek and leaned in to her. Our lips were inches apart so I closed my eyes and...
My eyes shoot open and I felt my heart beating really fast. I looked around the room and soon realized that it all was a dream. I looked beside me, but the bed was empty. Like it was empty the past two months. Next thing I knew was me laying in my cold bed, crying my eyes out. All the memories came flooding back to me. Two months ago I asked my girlfriend y/n to marry me. I had it all planned. It was the perfect night until she broke my heart and said no. At first I couldn't believe it but I soon realized that she wasn't joking. She really meant it. After five years of being together I thought she would say yes. I couldn't imagine ever being without her. I didn't want to live without her. That night was the last time I saw her. I tried to talk to her but she never answered me. She moved out of our apartment and back to her parents place. But even there she didn't want to talk to me. Whenever I was there, asking if I could see her her parent told me she was out and not at home. After some time I gave up. I finally realized that it was over.
I searched for my phone and unlocked it when I found it. I looked at the time, 2:36 am. I sighed and locked it again when suddenly it started to ring...
Y/n pov
I laid in my bed after I woke up in the middle of the night because of a dream. I had the same dream for the past two months. Every night I woke up, crying and feeling so guilty. I broke his heart. Two months ago. I will never forget the look on his face. How his hopeful eyes turned so sad because of this one word. I could see his heart breaking through them. The next day I decided to move out but even after that he still tried to contact me. I ignored him, I couldn't face him after what happened. He finally gave up. Probably moved on. And as much as I wanted to, I couldn't forget him. I woke up every night asking myself what would have been if I said yes? We would probably be planning the wedding. I felt the tears building in my eyes again and my already broken heart just broke a little more. I grabbed my phone and unlocked it. I looked at the time, seeing it was 2:36 am in the morning. I stared at my phone a little longer until I finally did what I wanted to do for the past two months. My finger pressed onto the 'call' button and I held my phone onto my ear.
He answered after the first ring. Why was he awake in the middle of the night?
"Y/n?"
Just hearing his voice again made me tear up.
"Shawn!"
"Why are you calling?"
"I-I don't know"
"Oh..."
There was an awkward silence before I spoke up again.
"Listen, I'm sorry."
"Why are you telling me this right now?"
"Because I... I-I miss you. And I'm so incredible sorry for what I did to you that night. I regret it every day and believe me, if I could turn back time, I would. I just wanted to let you know that. I'm sorry if I bothered you. Umm, I think I will go back to sleep now. Goodbye-"
"Wait! Don't go, please!"
I waited for him to continue, my heart pounding hard in my chest.
"I miss you too. So much. But I really want to know, why did you say no?"
"I honestly don't know. And I know this is not the answer you wanted. But I was too scared. I was scared that one day you don't want me anymore. That I'm not good enough for you. That one day I'm not the one who makes you happy anymore. And that I will lose you. Maybe even to another woman."
By now I was crying so hard that my breathing was uneven and I was gasping for air.
"Hey, calm down. Deep breaths. Everything is okay. I'm here!"
I listened to him and finally calmed down, tears still streaming down my cheeks.
"You know, I would never choose another woman over you. Never! I can promise you that. I understand your fear because that's exactly what I was scared for since I know you. That one day you will find someone better. And when you said no I thought you already found someone new. I didn't want to believe it but when you ignored me I realized that I lost you for good. I tried to get over you but honestly, it's impossible. I need you in my life bab- I mean y/n."
By now we both were fully crying. But hearing him almost calling me babe made my heard flutter like it did back then when we were together and he called me like that every day.
"Y/n?"
"Yes?"
"It might sound weird but can, umm c-can I maybe come over? Now?"
"please" I smiled.
"I love you Shawn!" I whispered but he had already end the call.
Should I make a second part of this?
