I leaned against the closed door in my room. Tears were rolling down my cheek as I remembered the words he said to me before he left. I felt my heart ache like never in my life before. I never felt this empty before. He seemed like he didn't care about me at all.
I saw it coming, the last months. He had always been in the studio for longer than usual, and he wasn't at home at all. I knew something was up but I didn't asked or talked about it. I didn't even think about it. I trusted him. I trusted him while he was with another girl behind my back. The whole time. I trusted him like nobody else in this world. That was a mistake. The biggest mistake in my entire life.
I was slowly sliding down on the wooden door behind me, until I was sitting on the ground. The tears wouldn't stop streaming down my face. In my chest I had this pain I have never felt before. My heart ached at the thought of him. He hurt me like nobody ever did before. I always thought he would be the man I marry one day. The father of my children. I let out a loud sob.
I looked around my room until my eyes land on a photo of the two of us. I remembered that day, it was in Australia a year ago. We were at the beach, eating ice cream. Suddenly all the memories of our time together came back to my mind. Good memories. Of the happy times. It wasn't always easy, he's famous, touring around the world and being one of the biggest music stars. It wasn't easy, we had our ups and downs but we always found a way to make our relationship work. We were happy. But then it all stopped. He had less time for me, wasn't at home that much. I thought he would be stressed because he was working on his new album and he wanted it to be perfect. Guess I thought wrong. While he was away he had found a new girl. At first it was just a kiss, then a hookup, before it turned into a secret relationship. All behind my back. And then he left me for her. He didn't want me anymore. Because I wasn't good enough. I wasn't good enough for Shawn Mendes.
I'm so sorry I haven't posted in a while!! And I'm sorry because this is so short and sad, but I was busy the last days❤ love you guys thank you all for reading this book!😍
