The Cursed Heart | BTS Fantasy AU [EDITING]

Chapter 52: The Artist

A/N: I used the English translated version of BTS songs, for Jivan's poems to Elira. And some lyrics from songs Jungkook covered as well.

Enjoy reading!

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August 30, 2018

"What should I do?" I pace back and forth in my room, at 5 in the morning.

It was Jivan's birthday tomorrow and I do not know what to do. He has been nothing - but amazing for the past two months, and I couldn't even think of a birthday present for him?

What does Jivan like? I plop myself on my bed and turned around to look at my mural on the ceiling. He writes poems, he enjoys visiting the human realm, he takes care of unicorns, but what could I do with that information?

Suddenly, I felt so bad, Jivan seemed to know a lot about me while I knew nothing about him. If I just had a way to know more about him. The realm he took me to, could I go there alone? It's 5 in the morning, what am I thinking? I can't.

Would Ninurta or Chad come with me? But then, Jivan said he wanted it to be our special place ...

Also, how did Jivan know a lot about me? When we barely talked for the last ten years. Could he be lying that he knew about that realm longer? However, he wouldn't lie about that ... he did lie about the constellation though.

"Ah!" I scream into my pillow and I hear my bedroom doors open and close.

"Are you alright?" it was Ninurta.

"I'm fine," I said into the pillow.

"What?" he asked.

I lift my head off the pillow and look at Ninurta, "I'm fine."

"Are you thinking about Jivan's birthday?" he asked walking towards me and sat on the bed.

"I just don't know what to do," I said hugging the pillow to my chest.

"Why don't you sleep some more and think about it later?" Ninurta said and I nodded.

"Alright," I said going under the covers, "I don't think I'll be able to sleep," I said staring at the mural.

"Do you want me to call Sigmund?" Ninurta asked and I nodded my head.

I heard the door open and close again.

I close my eyes trying to sleep, but my mind just goes into a mess, I sat up straight and stared ahead. Looking at my desk, I see piles of papers, they were the poems Jivan gave me for the past two months. Maybe something from the poems will inspire me. Since we started dating he gave me a poem every day with flowers. Old or new, I received a poem every day.

I read the latest one he gave yesterday.

August 29, 2018

Don't worry love

Because all of this is not a coincidence

We're completely different baby

Because we've found our destiny

From the day the universe was formed

Past infinite worlds

Jivan definitely had a way with words. I end up smiling all over again. I look through more poems.

July 9, 2018

I'm still on a journey right now

I want to be close to your heart