The Cursed Heart | BTS Fantasy AU [EDITING]

Chapter 53: The Poet

September 1, 2018

"When are you going to tell her?" Alvar came to my room as I was getting ready for my birthday ball.

"Tonight," I said adjusting my tie in a mirror.

"And what exactly are you going to tell her?" I felt Alvar's gaze as I walked across the room to get my blazer.

"The truth, that I knew she was cursed, but I'm going to break it," I said walking back to the mirror to adjust my blazer.

"When she asks how you know, what will you say?" Alvar was testing my patience.

"Why is this important anyway? I know she loves me, she won't care how I found out," I said towards Alvar, trying to keep my temper at bay.

"Jivan, your intel came from a pixie you hired to spy on Elira. Isn't that creepy?" Alvar said and I looked at him leaning on my bedroom wall.

"I did that for her protection, besides the pixie only tells me if something happens to Elira. It's not like I ask for a daily updates," I said.

"Jivan that's not the point, you have built your relationship on lies," Alvar said walking towards me and smoothed out my blazer, "You're like my little brother, I just want what's best for you."

I sighed, "Alvar, thank you for having my back, but I assure you. I and Elira are fine. I'll kiss her tonight and the curse will be broken, it will be happily ever after."

"You knew," a voice came from my bedroom door, it was Elira, "You knew I was cursed?"

"Elira, it's not what you think," I said approaching her.

"How long did you know?" she asked.

"I'll leave you two," Alvar quickly ran out the bedroom, coward.

"You have to calm down," I said trying to approach her, she was holding something in her hands. A canvas wrapped in white paper, I assumed.

She walked backward, "How long, Jivan?" she stared at me with coldness.

"The day it happened," I said and she just stared at me blankly.

"What this your plan? To put a curse on me and make me fall in love with you?" I was taken back with Elira's accusations.

"What? Elira I think you're taking this the wrong way, I had nothing to do with the -"

"You lied about the constellation and you know what, maybe that was a lie too. Maybe you told Crystal Snow to tell me that story about the constellations about being who you were destined for," why was she acting like this?

"Elira, I don't understand why you're being like this, if you would just calm down," I took steps towards her.

"Don't come near me, you liar!" she was starting to cry.

"I didn't lie to you Elira! I just didn't tell you!" I said and she laughed.

"And that makes it better? Here I was thinking that you really cared about my feelings and that you were genuinely waiting for me. But now I see it was just some ploy for you to be the one to break the curse, you don't love me. You always wanted to look like the hero, you always wanted to be the good guy, but you're not. And you never will be," I stood quietly. I didn't know what was happening, why was Elira saying such harsh things?

"Elira! I had nothing to do with that curse! I even snuck into your bedroom to make sure you were okay," her face was blank. I shouldn't have said that.

"You were the person in the black robe?" I nodded, "You were the reason my parents and everyone else, thought someone tried to assassinate me that night?!"

"I made a mistake Elira. I'm sorry, but you have to believe me, I do love you. I always have," I try to pull her for a hug, she struggles in my grip, "You have to believe me," I cup her face.

"Let me go," she said her eyes only filled with rage.

I move away from her, "I came here to surprise you with a gift, looks like I was the one who was surprised," she shoved the rectangular gift towards me.

I stare at it and heard her slam my bedroom door. How did everything end up like this?

This can't be real, this was just a dream a horrible nightmare ... I close my eyes shut, "Just a dream." I open my eyes, I was still holding the gift, and it was real. Everything that just happened was real.

I rip the wrapper and it reveals a painting of me and Elira, as kids, looking at butterfly. I remembered this day. I turned it around to see a message at the back.

'Happy Birthday Jivan! I know this can't compare to all of the great things you've done for me. I don't have the words to express the feelings I have for you, but I hope this conveys it.'

Tears started to fall from my face as I sat on the floor. Why was this happening to me?

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I wanted to cancel the party and locked myself in my bedroom. I couldn't face the people like this. But, I couldn't let everyone know something happened between me and Elira. When I got to the ballroom, I hoped she would be there, even if she ignored me. But she wasn't.

Alvar told me that she left with Tristan. Of course, she was with Tristan. It was always him, she loved in the first place.

The party was still on-going downstairs when I decided to escape to my bedroom.

I sat at my desk, writing how I felt.

I want to breathe, I hate this night

I want to wake up, I hate this dream

I'm trapped inside of myself and I'm dead

Don't wanna be lonely

Just wanna be yours

Why is it so dark where you're not here

It's dangerous how wrecked I am

Save me because I can't get a grip on myself

Listen to my heartbeat

It calls you whenever it wants to

Because within this pitch black darkness

You are shining so brightly

Give me your hand save me

I need your love before I fall, fall

None of this makes sense. Did she not trust me? Why did she easily assume, I had anything to do with her being cursed?

I'm not going to give up, I'm going to fight for our love. I knew she loved me, I'm sure of it.

A/N: In case you didn't know the E in Eun, stands for Evil apparently :-)

Destroying all the ships, left and right. Just because I can't let you have your happy ending, just yet ;-)