The Reasons Why {Jimin}

Reason 29

(Wattpad have been fucking up a lot, deleting a chapter and posting chapter twice so this was supposed to me chapter 30 but is now 29 because chapter 28 was posted twice. All you need to know if that this is a new chapter and not re-upload or anything 😅)

I sat in Tae sofa with a blanket around me. We hadn't said anything to each other after we arrived at his house. He sat in the chair beside the sofa with his worried eyes burning into me, while I sat on the sofa with my eyes on the floor pretending I didn't know Tae had been looking at me this whole time.

I had stopped crying by face was only tired tears and wet eyelashes from the thousands of tears I had cried on my way here. My head was tired. I had stopped overwhelming myself with thoughts and just started to focus on the pain in my heart. I was actually heartbroken by all of this. I didn't want to believe it but I also had to make myself understand that, Jimin Just was that kind of person.

My eyes went wide when I heard a car drive into the driveway in front of the house. 

"Is that?" I asked looking at Tae who stood up from his seat and looked towards the door like a dog ready to protect its owner.

"I'll go out and look, you just sit here" he ordered me and I nodded. As soon as Tae disappeared out of the front door I jumped up from my seat and followed him. I had lots of things to say to Jimin and I was not going to loose my opportunity to tell him how much I hated him for what he had done.

"I you need to leave right now" I heard Tae said to Jimin sternly.

"I need to talk to Carmen" Jimin pleaded.  I rolled my eyes feeling myself get more and more angry with him. He actually came here to lie to my face about all of this.

"I need to talk to you. You fucking asshole" I spat at him walking harshly out the door and towards him.

"Carmen I didn't-" he started but I had enough. I didn't have control over myself anymore, I was just so hurt. My hand flew and smacked Jimin across the face. His face quickly swung to the side. I froze for a second shocked at what I had just done but also happy I had done so.

"I'm so done with your bullshit!" I yelled at him while he still stood there with his face in the other direction.

"I'm not going to marry you, be with you, live with you or even use another second of my life with you!" I yelled so loud I felt my throat sting from all the power I had used to yell out my thoughts.

"I hate you" I hissed at him with tears forming in my eyes again but I quickly blinked them away.

Jimin turned to me with tears running down his cheeks. I was a little taken back as I backed away from him.

"I didn't do anything" he said in a low voice.

"Hoseok saw you with another girl going around town" I said harshly rolling my eyes at him crossing my arms over my chest.

"But I wasn't with another girl" he argued looking at me.

"Jimin, I-" I started ready to say my last goodbye and dump him right there and then.

"Carmen he said those things to put me in a bad light after he fucked up a few nights ago" Jimin explained. I looked at him blankly while his eyes pleaded for me to believe him.

"He told me so himself"

"I went down to the cafe right after I read your note, and he told me everything and I came here to tell you the truth" he explained desperately. Walking closer to me but I backed away from him while I listened closely.

"I wasn't with some other girl Carmen. You're the only girl I want to be with" he said loosing eye contact with me as his head hung low and his hands were at the back of his neck.

"I didn't cheat on you Carmen" he sobbed.

"I want to be with you" he cried out.

I felt bad. I did believe him even if the thought still lingered that he may just be a very good liar. But I didn't want to think of him like that. I wanted to believe he was telling me the truth, mostly because I loved him too much to think he would hurt me like that.

I walked over to him placing my hands on each side of his arms turning him towards me. I wrapped my arms around his torso as I pulled him into a tight hug.

"I believe you" I whispered. He placed his arms around me hugging me tightly back. Even if I would need some time to trust him and take all of this in I decided I would believe him. I definitely needed to talk to Hoseok about this to hear if this really was the truth.

"I love you Carmen" he said lowly close to my ear.

"I love you too" I said. I pulled away from the hug and attached my lips to his feeling the butterflies fill my body. I had missed him.

A/N
You have no idea what I've gone trough while writing this chapter, it was very intense and emotional. Let's just say that shit went down. 😅 (remember to vote!)