The Reasons Why {Jimin}

Reason 36

The day of the weeding...

Looking at myself in the mirror was a sight I had so many feelings and thoughts about. I liked my dress. It was simple and elegant, with its heart cut neck line decorated with soft lace. The bottom part was almost like a princess dress just that it wasn't to puffy and ball gown ish, more of a soft puffy skirt, which I liked a lot. I wasn't so into the princess look, I liked it more simple. My shoes were white silk like material. My hair had been put up in a bun and decorated with small flowers and pearls. I had the most natural makeup on which fitted with the simple theme of my dress. Both my mother and jimins mother had come in to see me multiple times and all times told me that "it's all so perfect" and how beautiful I looked. I couldn't get rid of the uneasy feeling filling my body the closer the clock got to five. Everything laid ready for me to go down the aisle. The flowers I was going to hold laid on the makeup table, next to it laid the veil. I sat in one of the chairs looking out window at all the cars pulling up to the building. The more people who pulled up the more nervous I got.

I had called Tae last minute to ask him to be by my side through the ceremony and just the weeding in general. Of course he wanted to do it, which made me a little less stressed about it all.

Soft knocks came from the door. How may times was my mother going to come in here and look at me just to walk out again after starting crying.

"Yes" I answered slightly annoyed.

The door opened slowly and in peaked Tae's face with a smile flashing at me.

"I hope you don't mind me joining you for a second" he said standing in the door frame still.

"No of course not. Come in" I smiled at him. He nodded making his way into the room and towards me. He was wearing a light grey suit with a black tie to it. His shiny and obvious new shoes clicked against the floor. He stopped a meter away from me standing straight with his body turned to me.

"You look beautiful Carmen" he complimented. I immediately felt uncomfortable as I looked down at myself seeing the dress.

"Thank you" I muttered out.

"Is everything ok?" Tae asked obviously noticing my strange response. I was just nervous that's the only reason I said it like that.

"Everything is Fine, just nervous" I reassured him with a smile looking up at him. He nodded with a strange look on his face, seemingly not believing me.

"You seem confident about all of this. That's great" he said placing his hands in his pockets.

"Of course. I love Jimin and I'm marrying him" I said feeling like I had said something truthful for the first time in weeks.

"I'm happy for you" Tae said before my mother came stumbling into the room frantically.

"Carmen get up" she said harshly.

"Your going down the aisle in five minutes" she said grabbing the veil. I stood up quickly as I heard her words. My heart beat sped up and I was already feeling myself getting sweaty from nerves.

"I'll see you out there" Tae said as my mother placed the veil on my head. I nodded with a smile as he exited the room.

"Don't Be nervous ok?" My mother said placing the veil on my head.

"Just focus on Jimin" she said looking at me with a smile. I nodded with a smile. I finally felt like I had gotten some kindness from my mother after long months With only fights.

"Take a deep breath before you go out there" she smiled at me taking my hand in hers and walking towards the door. My heart was almost beating out of my chest.

We walked down the long set of stairs down to the ceremony room. The door were closed but I could hear people talking on the other side of the door. I took a deep breath hearing the music start. The doors opened and there I stood with hundreds of eyes on me. An arm intertwined with mine. I looked up seeing my father looking at me with tearful eyes. I smiled at him and took my first step down the aisle with him as my support. Jimins eyes quickly meet mine and I kept my eyes on him all the way down the aisle. It made me both nervous and reassured to see him. Even if this room was filled with people I didn't know and cared about, the person i care about the most is at the end of this, waiting for me.

We stopped a meter away from the alter. My dad gave me a hug before sitting down and Jimin meet me taking his hand in mine. We both took a few steps forward. We stopped when we got close enough to the alter where the priest stood. My eyes landed on Tae for a couple of seconds who was already crying. I smiled at him but wanting to laugh at him for being so emotional.

Jimin and I turned to each other as the ceremony started. My nerves were at an all time high and I felt my dress get tighter and tighter. I wanted to ignore all the anxiety in my body and I tried my hardest to do so. The priest words were drowned out by my own thoughts and how heavy my breathing.

"Do you Jimin, take Carmen to be your wife? Do you promise to be faithful to her in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, to love her and to honor her all the days of your life?" The priest asked Jimin who looked at me with his eyes full of truth and love, something I knew I couldn't return to him.

"Yes" he said making my breath hitch and my eyes water.

"do you Carmen take Jimin to be your husband? Do you promise to be faithful to him in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, to love him and to honor him all the days of your life?" The priest asked. I looked at Jimin with tears steaming down my face. I bit down at my lip. I had hundreds of thoughts rushing trough my head. I had to do what felt right to me. I had so do something for me this time. Jimins face ran cold and all the color in his skin went away.

"I can't" I breathed out letting my hands fall out of his.

A/N
Holy shit! We still have four chapters let's so let's not jump to conclusions ok? 😅