Hearts Of Glass💔🥀 [completed]

13: Lost Love

TINI- Losing The Love

"This love is a fever and I'm hit,
Can't stand it I'm bleeding
Let me in,
We're losing the love"

Maia

Tuesday morning. After the events that took place yesterday, my body, mind, soul and heart couldn't function.

"Sweetie, you should've been up like half an hour ago." My mom said as she entered my room.

I'm not sure how my face looked but her expression changed when she was my face.

"Honey, are you feeling a little under the weather? You look blue." She said to me.

"I don't know mom. Can I not go to school today?" I asked giving her the puppy eyes.

"Well of course. It'd be cruel to let you go like this. I think it's the weather... it's gonna start raining soon anyway. It's that time of the year again so maybe that's the problem." She said.

The good thing about my mother is that the nature of her job allows her to understand other people. She's a physiotherapist.

"And please don't tell me you broke your glasses again." She said moving closer to the glasses I had tossed the previous day.

"I'm sorry mom. May I please just get contact lenses? These glasses are too fragile." 'Just like my heart' I thought after saying that.

"Okay, well I don't have any appointments today so I guess we can go." She said.

For the first time in an awful lot of hours I smiled.

I showered and got dressed hurriedly and we went to the optician.
The ride was quiet and steady.
Once we got there, we walked up to the front desk. It was around 10 in the morning so I think we were the only people there.

"So Maia, here's your prescription and the colour of your contacts is up to you." Said the kind nurse.

"Thank you." I said.

"Which colour would you like?" Asked the optician whom had attended to me.

"I uh.... blue. I want blue." I replied.

Don't get me wrong... I didn't choose blue because Cade has blue eyes. This time I did it for me. My name is Maia Blue. It's time I fully maximise my inner blue.

Getting the contacts applied wasn't too hard. I was just happy that I could see fine without those goofy glasses.

On our way back home, I looked at my screen and there were several messages from Ember. I would've opened them but all I wanted was a message from my boyfriend. And he hadn't even left me a text or a call. I checked my voicemail and there was nothing.

I immediately locked my screen and looked out the window. The silence in the car slowly became consuming.

Fortunately my mom decided to break it.

"You know for someone who just got contact lenses, you seem awfully quiet and burdened. Are they irritating?" She asked.

"No it's just that I... I haven't gotten a message from my boyfriend since yesterday and in worried." I told her.

"Oh I'll just ignore the fact that you have a boyfriend and didn't tell me, but why hasn't he? Did you guys fight or something?" She asked.

"No, but I'm not in school today and he's not even worried mom. Maybe I don't matter to him anymore."

"Don't say that Maia, of course you matter. Maybe he's just going through something. And if he wanted to end things he would've just told you. And who's the lucky guy?"

"More like the unlucky guy cause he has to put up with garbage like me." I said and immediately got out of the car since she had just pulled up in our driveway.

"Maia, come on." She yelled and followed me into the house.

I ran upstairs and locked myself inside. I sat down against the door and the tears rolled down. Cade and I were losing the little love that we had built in so little time.
Come to think of it Cade never said he loves me. And that hurt a lot. I just don't understand why I have to suffer like this. I never begged him to want me. He made me believe he wanted me. Maybe Ember was right after all... It was probably just a one night stand and I had given in to the booty call But right now he's not even bothered by my absence, so maybe my presence never mattered. He doesn't even care if I'm okay...

And deep inside my heart I know that lost love is hard to retrieve. It's as if it can never be found again...