Hearts Of Glass💔🥀 [completed]

15: Cade's Voice (Part 1)

Bmike ft. Jurrivh- I Wish I Never Found You

"I guess you could've fooled the entire world with those
Pretty long curls that had me at hello
I guess my imagination did that on its own
You were not like a typical pretty girl
More like a New York City girl
But not like on 5th Avenue
Up in Manhattan you were much more fulfilling girl
Milly rocking all over my feelings truck driving like a truck driver in the semi uhaul, Up in Utah
Over my feelings but
You are still so God damm appealing
And atop of it I'd still take you back
Even if I left I would make it back
Stuck writing rhymes and one liners of you and I
But it's time that i face the facts
Some people dont change even if they vow to"

Cade

I heard a loud bang on the door. I was pretty much exhausted.
I walked to door, opened it and saw none other than the queen of my heart herself.

"Cade?" Maia gasped.

She pulled me close and tight and her head rested on my chest. Oh gosh, only God knows how much I wanted to embrace as well, but I couldn't.
I just couldn't.

"Cade, what's wrong?" She asked after realising I had shown no love or affection.

"What are you doing here?" I asked her.

"What am I doing here? What are you doing here?" She asked.

"I live here, or am I supposed to be elsewhere?" I asked her.

Don't hate me for being an ass but I had my reasons for avoiding Maia.

"Cade, I was tortured yesterday, and today I didn't even show up at school and you don't even call or text just to know if I'm alright. I couldn't breathe and you ain't even know it. Shit, how come you never show it. All this love you speak of. All I want is to love and be loved." She reasoned.

Maia was right. But I had to push her away now more than ever. I couldn't do this to her. I couldn't hurt her. She wasn't like any of the other girls I've been with in my life. She's different. She's got a beautiful soul and heart. I can't fill her life with empty promises. She deserves better than me.

"But Maia I never said I love you." I said to her.

The look she gave me was heartbreaking. What kind of a monster am I?

Maia stepped closer to me and glared at me.

"You used me."

"No I didn't, it's just that I was hurt over breaking up with Kendall and I knew you would never say no to me." I lied.

"You're lying. I don't believe you. The feeling was real Cade. It was even realer than that." She said.

"Please go, it's over between us." I broke it to her.

I was surprised she didn't break down into tears.

She moved closer and closer and I had to draw back.

"You're afraid."

"Of what? Maia just go."

"So you're telling me that all that we did meant nothing to you?" She asked.

"All what, that was just some crazy sex. And I've been meaning to tell you that I don't fuck with beginners. You were a virgin when I met you. And you think I wanna be stuck with you for the rest of my life?"

This time she lost it. Maia slapped me across the face. And she grabbed my collar.

"You're a bad liar." She hissed.

If only she knew how much I wanted her. I just couldn't be with her. I'm a little unsteady and clumsy. I didn't want to break her heart in the end. The pain of crashing into a wall at full speed is worse than of when you're just walking. I thought I'd end things now before I cause too much damage.

"If you really mean those words, then you won't feel anything if I do this." She said as she leaned in and kissed me.

She kissed me slowly. Everything went slowly so I could follow her temper, and search into her eyes. When they joined, her scent was brave and strong and certain. I took it into myself, breathing her breath, feeling what she felt. I'd never known anything as right.

"If only our hearts were made of glass, how careful would we be with love? Tell me something Maia, why does your heart bleed like this... I don't deserve you." I said as I kissed her soft lips.

"I do not bleed." Maia whispered.
"It is you that flows through my veins." She whispered again but this time she spoke the language of the universe and the stars sighed in unison.

"Forgive me Maia." I apologised.
"I love you." I said.

Her eyes widened.

"Yes Maia, I love you. I love you with the strength of the wind. I love you like you have no idea. I love you to the moon and back and I'll never stop loving you." I confessed.

She smiled with a tear in her eyes and then I realised how blue her eyes were.

"Blue eyes?" I asked.

"Took you long enough to notice." She said as the tear rolled down.

"I'm sorry Maia. I just couldn't do this. I felt like I couldn't be able to handle you and make you happy. I'm a clumsy asshole. And you're a beautiful woman who deserves better than me. I thought maybe if I pushed you away, you wouldn't come back." I explained.

She didn't answer. But instead she removed her arms from around my neck and took steps back.

"Maia what's wrong?" I asked. The sudden change on her face sent some negative sparks. I'm afraid I had broken something special. Maia just didn't look the same. I guess I accidentally took it too far and forgot that her feelings are too delicate.

"I... I should probably go home." She quietly mumbled.