TOUR [ H.S ]

12. London night one.

Katie :

We were finally with London which meant that we were so close to heading to Asia.My job has been really flexible but the only thing that was tiring my body out completely was the jet lag.I adore my job,it made me discover an interest of mine that I never knew I actually had in me..Styling.I never realised how much i enjoy pairing outfits together,it's something I genuinely love doing.Experimenting with different colours and types of clothing.

I'm grateful that Harry had a very open and free style.Never really caring about what he should or shouldn't wear,he still had his boundaries but other than that he was always open to try new styles.

Yesterday was probably one of the best days i've ever had in such long time.Harry surprising me to see my favourite band in flesh and that was just an experience i'll never ever forget.Mick kissing the back of my hand,still remembering the way my hair stood up as i watched him approached me.I remember the deafening scream from my mom the moment i shared my experience with her.But despite that happening,i can't push a specific memory that's been flashing in my mind ever since occurred.Still feeling the softness of his fingertips sinking into my skin,his charming dimpled smile when his lips were moulded against mine,the mystery in his eyes as i pulled his body closer to mine.The sudden outburst of confidence cursing through my veins as my fingers dug into his t-shirt,his body languidly drawing itself to me like as if there was a huge magnet placed on my body.

My mind still not being able to comprehend what we had done and my stomach twisting into never ending knots just thinking about keeping this secret from anyone..especially Lou. Coming into this job,I never expected or saw any of this happening between Harry and I.When it came to relationships,i was always the awkward one.

I mean i couldn't even order my own meal at the restaurant without feeling like i wanna bury myself in a hole and die.

I knew i was always attracted to Harry ever since the first day we met but it was never my intention to start anything.Whenever i had an interest in someone,i'd just try to push my feelings away and ignore it.Just like how i always do with the rest of my problems.Sweeping them away under some imaginary carpet.

Do i regret kissing him?

No,i actually don't.
For the first time in so long,i finally don't regret doing something in my life.I've always been afraid,so afraid of doing things out of my comfort zones because i'm terrified of judgement.But last night,a new side of me was released.I didn't know if it was because of the adrenaline in me due to the blasting music and deafening screams in the room but it definitely helped boost my confidence around Harry.

It's not gonna be easy falling for a man like him

"Yeah so my Nan took me to the museum which was lovely." Explained Lou as she curled Clare's hair.

"Kat are you alright?"she added and i paid my attention her,"Yeah yeah sorry I'm just really tired." I responded,rubbing my eyes lazily and she looked at me with suspicion, "What did you and Harry do during the two days,come on story time me !" Exclaimed Lou,Clare's eye widening when she heard what Lou had said.