TOUR [ H.S ]

20. Melbourne,Australia.

Katie :

"I don't really like my hair too high."

I was currently sitting down on the couch watching Clare and Lou do their own thing but my head was filled with more than a hundred thoughts because of what had happened with Harry. All i could think of was.Harry.Was I angry? Yes,but do i blame him? of course not.I knew deep down he wasn't ready to be into a relationship but i was the stubborn one,i never gave him the time to think about himself and i feel fucking terrible even just thinking about it.I guess it was just the first time in so long since i've actually felt something for someone and i felt like i had rushed myself.

Harry was and is still the most wonderful and kind hearted person that i possibly know and all i ever wanted was for him to be happy.I never thought i would even end up with him but so many things happened that i never expected,and then it let to this.We aren't a couple anymore but he never lost his respect for me even as a friend and that says a lot about him as a person.I was now just his stylist and it was such a bitter sweet feeling whenever i had to style him and pretend that i don't have at least the slightest bit of feelings for him,it really was the hardest.I didn't even know if he felt the same way about me anymore but whatever happens,it's all his decision and i'm here to keep my job no matter what.

"Oh my god Kat look at what Lou did to my hair!" Exclaimed Clare as she pointed at the top of her bun,facing towards me,i immediately bursted out laughing when i looked at Clare. "Lou you are so mean!" I scolded Lou and we all laughed.

I took a quick glance at the clock on the vanity and noticed that it was already 7:20pm which meant that the show will start in 35 minutes time and i had to get Harry dressed.

"Alright i'm gonna go get Harry changed for the show." I said to them,forcing myself out from the couch and walking out of  the girl's dressing room.

I still didn't mention to anyone about the break up because i didn't like talking about it,i figured i'll just leave it up to Harry to tell the rest and i'm just gonna keep silent on my side and just do my job like as if nothing was bothering me.

I walked to the dressing room and knocked on the door, "Who is it?" Asked Harry through the other side. "It's Kat !" I answered and then i heard footsteps getting closer to the door and it was finally   opened and i was now facing Harry.He was using the same rolling stones t-shirt that i had worn the other day when he took me to see them live and all the memories started crashing in.

"Do you want some water Kat?" He asked politely,opening the door wide enough so that i could walk in, "It's okay i just had a cup of coffee so i'm all sorted out,thanks H."I thanked him as i walked towards the rack of clothing,i could hear him walk towards the seat behind me and then it was just pure silence.

Fuck this is gonna be hard

I looked through the many suits that he had and noticed a set where it was jet black but had unique metallic gold details everywhere,it was stunning.The detail on this suit was purely incredible,"Look at the detail on this Harry." I mentioned,turning around to face him,immediately noticing that he was already looking at me with a small smile, "That is..beautiful." i nodded awkwardly before looking away.

Fucking hell..why must he make it so hard for me?

I took the suit off the hanger and turned back around,facing Harry, "Alright let's try out this fit." I said to him and he stood up,peeling his shirt off his body.

I know i've seen him shirtless countless of times but jesus this man was so fit..

I took the blazer,placing it around his body and dusted off any specs of dusts that was on it,it was a perfect fit.I then handed him the matching trousers and he wore it,zipping it up in a swift motion.He attempted to button up the sleeves on his blazer but kept failing and i couldn't help but let out a chuckle causing him to look up at me with a shy smile, "Come here let me help you with that." i said and he nodded walking over to me, "I've been buttoning your outfits for a month now and you still haven't got the hang of it eh?" I joked and he chuckled,shaking his bead.

"I don't have steady hands." He said,sticking his tongue out at me causing me to giggle,i slowly buttoned up his blazer and i swear i could feel his stare on me every second.

"Have you told the rest yet?" He asked out of nowhere and i looked at him with a confused expression, "What do you mean?" I questioned.

"You know..about us." He answered me awkwardly and i understood what he meant. "Umm i haven't actually..but if you want me to,i can tell it to them.I just didn't want to mention anything about us because i felt like i shouldn't have a say on this." I told him honestly and he nodded listening carefully to every word i was saying.

"No,yeah i totally agree. Adam and Jeff were talking about you and i earlier and i was such an idiot because i kept talking about us like as if we were still dating.." he mentioned and i looked at him,a frown starting to appear on my face.

"Harry.." i whispered,
"I know I'm so sorry,i still have feelings for you and i know it was a mutual decision but i can't help but think about us.I can't just tell people that we aren't together anymore because then i'd look like some dude who broke your heart-"

"But you didn't." I cut him off midway and he looked at me sadly,i took a step closer to him,placing my hand on his cheek gently before sighing out.

"You never broke my heart,and you have to know that it's not selfish to put yourself first.Your happiness is what matters and the opinion of others do not.It hurts for me as well just knowing that i won't be able to go back to you after the end of a very long day,o-or have our typical early morning dates-" "We still can." He cut me off unexpectedly and i looked at him sadly, "But it wouldn't be the same if you're not 100% in it." I whispered and he nodded sadly,slowly backing away and sighing out before adjusting his outfit.

I'm sorry

"You ready for the show?"

"I'm ready." He responded as we both walked out of the dressing room ,heading towards the stage area together.

It was already showtime,which meant that the band had to prepare themselves on stage. "Good luck guys!" I said to them and they all thanked me,i couldn't help but notice Harry hugging jeff and then walking past me.

"Harry ?" I called and he turned around,waiting for me to say something.

"You're gonna do great things out there."