TOUR [ H.S ]

21. Sydney,Australia.

Harry:

"So the two of you broke up?"

It has only been like 4-5 days since the break up and i haven't been feeling the best about it,maybe because the thought that it was only a relationship worth only a month was what made it sound worse. Don't get me wrong i really really like admire Katie and i definitely see her in my future,but at the same time i feel like i'm not giving myself some time to just settle down.I know i'm still young and all that but what if letting Katie go was a wrong decision?

What if i was meant to keep her in my life? But then there were also questions like..what if i get unhappy again like my previous relationships? Or what if i'm not enough?

She's definitely the most easy going person i've ever dated,we weren't constantly lovey dovey.We're more like the best friends kind of lovers which i find very amusing because it feels more open that way.

"Lou..it's very complicating." I mumbled and she hit the side of my arm,"Harry! This is serious,it was almost a one month relationship are we kidding?" She said angrily and i rolled my eyes because I knew she was going to react this way.

"Yes i am aware of that and hitting me won't solve any of this thank you very much." she sighed, "How is she?I knew she wasn't acting like herself these past few days." Said Lou and i rubbed my forehead.

"Have i been acting like myself as well Lou? Look at me." I grumbled and she looked at me sadly, "Are you really letting this go Haz ?" She asked me,her voice more gentle this time and i leaned back against the couch,sinking my fingers through my hair.

I don't want to

"There's this part of me in my head where i feel like this is a mistake..what if im meant to keep her in my life? And then the other part of me says..what if it doesn't work out? There's so many fucked up questions in my head Lou and yes if you want me to be honest,i do like her and i was the happiest i've ever been with her.Jesus-i've even brought her back to meet my family and they loved her as well but sometimes things are unfair okay." I said truthfully and she sat next to me,giving me a big hug.

"I will never judge you Haz,i hope you know that.And Katie? She has the biggest fucking heart ever,i don't think i've ever came across a person actually agreeing to be close friends with an ex.That says a lot about her." Said Lou and i nodded listening to her.

"I know she has the biggest heart ever and believe me i am so con-" i said but then the door was opened by Kat and the room instantly became quiet.

fuck fuck fuck

She looked at me and then back to Lou, "Hey guys what's up." Greeted Kat as she walked in with Mitch and Sarah following behind her.

"Hey take a seat guys." Said Lou and then they all sat down on the couch at the opposite of us, "I can't wait to go to Singapore and Japan,it's gonna be a whole new experience for us." Said Mitch and Sarah gasped, "Oh my god we can go to the cherry blossom park i told you about,it looks amazing love." Said Sarah excitedly and Kat looked genuinely happy for them.

I remember telling Kat about how exciting it would be for us to go to Japan together for the first time and i remember her being so excited about it because she never got the chance to travel to this part of the world,it was her first time in Australia as well and i felt fucking terrible for ruining her whole experience.

"Yeah and Harry could take Kat as well, it would be like a cheesy double date." suggested Mitch with a smirk and i looked at Kat immediately,her eyes widening in shock.

Fucking hell harry

"Yeah yeah i'm excited to see Japan as well." I said awkwardly and Kat mouthed a "thanks" to me and i nodded,giving her a reassuring smile.