TOUR [ H.S ]

26. Bangkok,Thailand.

Katie:

It is now two days after the incident,the one where Harry had a major panic attack and ended up being admitted in hospital.

After we both confessed our love to one another,we pretty much ended up falling asleep on the sketchy hospital bed that felt like it was about to break any second.Thankfully,it didn't break ..which i'm quiet surprised on how we somehow survived that.

As usual,Harry being Harry..he managed to perform the next day.However,the only difficult part was that he constantly needed to take his medicines that were prescribed by the doctors and whenever he felt like he was running out of breath,he had to use his asthma pump.Fun fact,i was 12 years old when i had my very first asthma pump.My dad took me to one of the biggest parks in my neighbourhood and i remember feeling way too excited that i ended up running around the whole entire park a numerous amount of times till i collapsed on the ground,after that my dad rushed me to the nearest hospital and i was given my very own asthma pump.Not to be a weirdo or whatever but i felt like a badass coming out of the hospital with my very own asthma pump,i felt cool.

"I can't believe we're going to Japan soon !" Exclaimed Clare as she touched up on her lipgloss.

Sarah,Clare,Lou and i were now hanging out in the dressing room because Harry was in his own dressing room chilling with the guys,i never got to update you on my situation with Lou.Let's just say we haven't had a real conversation since the day i walked away from her,but we did say small words here and there to each other which is so unlike us because usually we ramble allot but things changed.I miss my best friend,the Lou that didn't judge me or the Lou that supported me 24/7 and had never doubted me.

I know one day eventually one of us will break this little angry bubble going on between us but for now i know i can't be the one.

"It's always been a dream of mine to visit Japan, Harry told me allot about his trip there last year.He said he wants to take me to some Japanese art museum which he never told me the name of because he couldn't pronounce it." I said and Clare shook her head,Lou gave me a small smile and i smiled back.

"Oh my god,i can take you guys to my home town in Japan! I can show you guys around and you can even meet my family." Mentioned Clare excitedly and Sarah nodded agreeing with her, "Yes you should,we could have like an outing near your place Clare since it's not in the city..people won't follow us." Suggested Sarah and we all nodded, "I'm gonna head out first to have breakfast with Jeff and Harry,i'll see you girls later and i'll help you pack." I said to them as i picked my phone up from the table,getting up from my seat and then walking out of the room.

I walked to Harry's dressing room and knocked on the door,then hearing faint footsteps approaching and the door was finally opened,revealing Harry.Jeff,Adam and Mitch were in the room as well but they were using their phones and chatting away.

"Hi babe." Greeted Harry as he gave me a quick kiss on the lips causing me to smile at the sudden affection, "Hey,what time are we heading out for lunch ?"i asked him curiously.

"Jeff,what time?" He asked Jeff and Jeff looked up at us,giving me a small smile, "Uhh we'll leave in about 5 minutes,just let me send some files to these two fellas right here then we're all good." Answered Jeff as he continued to do his work on his laptop.

"Yeah sure don't worry bout it,take all the time you need." I reassured him as i walked into the room,sitting down next to Mitch on the couch with Harry following behind me as well.

Ever since Harry and I had exchanged " I love you's" .. it felt more open between us,it was almost like there were no more secrets kept from each other and it was so much more easier to communicate about the past.We could cry about it but it won't seem or feel weird because it just feels so normal for us and i liked it that way,we really connected with each other and i've never felt like this with anyone..ever.It was nice being vulnerable with someone you love and them actually understanding how you feel.

"I got a surprise for you once we're all settled in Japan." Mentioned Harry with a smirk as he nudged my elbow, "Aw man,i'm going to Japan with you?" I joked and he rolled his eyes.

"I was expecting an answer like "Oh my god are you serious i'm so excited to spend more time with you" but whatever it's no biggie." Teased Harry and i laughed at his response.

"Im kidding,i use sarcasm to hide how happy & excited i feel on the inside so i won't seem like a weirdo on the outside." I said honestly as i patted his thigh, "Yeah and i'm starting to think that i'm getting my sarcasm from being around you too much." Said Harry and i chuckled at his response.

"Jesus,it's like i'm hearing two Harry's speak at the same time." Said Jeff as he looked at us and we all laughed out loud, "We get that allot." Said Harry and I in unison.

"Harry,so just to confirm..we'll be in Japan for about 3 days.It's the longest i can extend the trip before the next show." Said Jeff as he typed something into his phone, "Yea sure it's all good,i thought we could at least have 5 days but it's totally understandable." answered Harry as he nodded,placing his phone down on the table in-front of us.

"Babe i'm going to change into another outfit and then we can head out for lunch." informed Harry as he got up from the couch and kissed my temple, "Yeah sure i'll be right here." I said to him giving him a smile and he nodded walking to his wardrobe.

I loved the little gestures he does whenever he's around me,it showed that he really cares.I never thought i could be so lucky to find myself a man like him,it's just so surreal even thinking about it.

My thoughts were disrupted as i heard a buzz sound coming from Harry's phone on the table.

I notice from afar that he had received a text message and i'm usually not the sneaky type but it was pretty obvious from here that it was a text message.It kept buzzing multiple times and it got me all paranoid,what if it was his mom or if it was an emergency?What if it was Gemma? my anxiety was all over the place and i couldn't help but sat up and looked at his lock screen which was still on.I furrowed my eyebrows as i tried to get a closer look and when i did ..i instantly regretted looking at it.

They were text messages from Camille ..
Wait what,why was he still texting her ? Why would he still be talking to her ?

Camille-We can meet and talk to each other Harry
Camille-it was all my fault and i know that
Camille-but we can fix this ..
Camille-just say the word Harry and we can fix us

My heart literally dropped to my stomach.

He texted her before this and he didn't tell me about it and yes i am aware that somethings do remain private but this..was his ex.Somebody that he used to love for a whole year.He should feel comfortable enough to trust and talk to me about this but he chose to hide it and text her back? God- i don't even know what he had texted her before this,there's so many questions in my head and i feel really stressed out.What did he say? Will they even meet?

Will he reply her?