TOUR [ H.S ]

46. Minneapolis,Saint Paul.

Harry:

"So since the tour is already coming towards an end, you can have your break and then in a few months time-we could go back to the studio and brainstorm some new songs." suggested Jeff as he wrote some notes down onto his notebook,i nodded my head.

I couldn't concentrate at all,everything felt like a blur to me.I was emotionless during my show two nights ago,the words were still replaying in my head.

Katie is pregnant.

I am angry and i am hurt.
I don't know how to react to it and the worst part is that Jeff doesn't even know about this,he is suppose to know about the news first because he takes care of me.I had to tell him as soon as possible.I felt guilty for not telling Jeff first because i told Xander first,it was a gut instinct.Xander is my best friend and i always tell him everything,his reaction ? Well he was shocked at first and he was really worried too but he went on Kat's side which to be honest really hurt me but i don't hate him. I don't hate Kat,i am just really upset that she brought my family into this.I should know first,not them.

We haven't talked to each other for two days,i just don't think i'm ready for all of this.I'm not responsible or ready to even be a father,don't get me wrong i adore kids but i was far too young to experience this.I don't even know how i'm going to keep this a secret from my fans especially now that they all know about my so called private relationship with Kat.This is was all too difficult.

"Jeff, i have to tell you something." I said out of nowhere and Jeff raised an eyebrow at me as he placed his pen down,drawing his attention towards me.

"You have every right to be mad at me when i tell you this,you can punch me or do whatever you want to me.I won't blame you.." i added and he begun to look worried for me,i took a deep breath in and out to cool myself down. "Katie is..p-pregnant."

I couldn't face Jeff right now,i already feel like a embarrassment knowing that i failed him.

"Harry.." said Jeff and i slowly looked up at him,he looked sad.

"I'm so sorry Jeff,i fucked up.I really did." I immediately broke down and he placed a hand on my shoulder to calm me down,i really really fucked up this time. "Harry." said Jeff a little louder this time and i kept quiet.

"How did this happen..? Yes i get it,you both fucked up but you have to really communicate with me now. This is a lot for me to handle as well especially as your manager,i'm the one that has to be careful with everything."he sighed out in frustration, he was right.

"She went on the pill,it was our decision.We knew that we had a 1% risk but it always worked for others so we got so confident that we doubted the fact that it could happen.But jeff..you don't understand,i'm not ready at all.Not a part of me is telling me that i'm ready to raise a baby,hell i'm not even sorted out myself." I said,running my fingers harshly through my hair and Jeff sat next to me.I felt like as if there was this huge lump in my throat,all i wanted to do was just puke but nothing was coming out.