Diary of an Introvert

15: Missing Someone In Heaven

I was about to sleep (like 5 minutes ago) when I happened to see this post on Facebook as I scrolled down the feed.

It said, "Please share this butterfly in memory of your loved one in heaven."

My heart once again tightened and I can feel soreness in my throat and like a tear in my eyes.

I remembered my lolo and my dog.

These two were the ones who made me feel loved during those times that I feel lonely and unappreciated.

Every time I'm at the farm, my lolo would always prepare my milk every morning. We will sing along on the radio. He would play his guitar and taught me harmonica (the very first instrument I learned before the piano, flute, and guitar).

These memories of him made me think that maybe I got one of his talents and love in music. ❤🎸

For my dog, which we randomly named Sleepsy because of his habit of sleeping, I miss you.

Until now, I still can't fully love other dogs as I did to you before. I could still remember that time I came home for lunch and knew that you died. I smiled outside but cried as I entered the bathroom.

My gosh.

Writing this is making me cry again.

Haaa~

Well, for lolo and Sleepsy, I hope and pray that you're okay wherever you are now. I miss you both. 😢❤

Before I turn my phone off, I posted it on my facebook.

"Eucee is feeling sad. 😔"

The next day...

I woke up and checked my phone.

It's 6:30 am.

And I have 1 notification.

Messenger (1)

I opened it.

Aki: what's wrong?

He asked.

Of all my free time, bakit ngayon ka pa nagparamdam?

Bakit ngayon pa kung kailan pinapaniwala ko na ang sarili kong wala kang pakialam sakin?!

Tch.

I did not reply.

***to be continued***