Diary of an Introvert

18.5.5

It's Aki.

Bakit siya nandito?!


 

It will be more awkward kung babalik ako sa CR para magtago kaya dumeretso na lang ako sa mesa namin.

"Cee? Nandito ka rin?" He looked surprised.

"Yes, po." I cheerfully replied to him and I just saw Calvin made an irritated face. "Bakit ka nandito, Aki?" I asked.

"Day off ko ngayon. Wala akong magawa sa bahay kaya pumunta na ako dito tapos nakita ko tong si Calvin." He turned to face his friend. "Hoy, bakit di mo man lang ako sinabihan na nandito ka? At kasama mo pa si Eucee."

Calvin made a quick (obviously fake) laugh. "Aki, lunch break ko ngayon. Malay ko bang pupunta ka rito?"

"Eh bakit magkasama kayong dalawa?" He pointed the both of us.

I don't know what to say kaya tinignan ko si Calvin. Good thing about this guy, alam niya ang ibig kong sabihin.

I'm just worried sa sasabihin niya.

"Obviously, Eucee and I are having lunch together. We're friends now so wala akong nakikitang masama doon."

Calvin gave him a look that I did not understand but that made Aki smile and sit with us.

"Then, dahil magkaibigan naman tayong tatlo, I should join you, right, Cee?"

Both of them were staring at me. What now?!

"Ah...yeah. Okay lang. Hehe..."

Aki smiled but the other guy here surely avoided my eyes.

Our orders came and Aki ordered for his lunch.

Aki and I were talking about fun stuff like anime and One Ok Rock while Calvin ate his food in a rush. 

Ten minutes after, dumating na rin ang in-order ni Aki and at the same time, Calvin finished his food.

"Mauna na ako sa inyong dalawa. Marami pa akong gagawin sa opisina."

"Okay, Cal! Ingat." Sabi ni Aki sa kanya.

He smiled at him but he gave me a glare and snob.

Problema nun?! Saan napunta ang pagiging sweet niya?! Tch.

"Cee. Hoy, Cee."

"Ah-ha? Hala, sorry, Aki. Hehe...ano yun?"

"Ang sabi ko, bakit kasama mo si Calvin? Are you two close?"

"Ha? I wouldn't say we're close pero nagkakausap din naman kami minsan. He said he likes my music so he's like a fan."

"So you just randomly decided to have lunch with a fan?"

I was confused by his question.

At ano naman sayo ngayon kung nakikipaglunch ako sa ibang tao? May pakialam ka ba sakin? Parang wala naman di ba? So why act like you are now?! Just ignore me like you usually do, damn it.

"Actually, nagkita kami kagabi. Nag-usap lang at nakalimutan ko yung laptop ko sa bench kaya dinala niya na. Nagkita ulit kami ngayon dahil ibabalik niya sakin ang laptop ko. At dahil lunch time lang siya makakaalis, we decided to have lunch together."

Wait--why am I explaining these to him?! Why am I clearing some confusion here? Would it be better to make him think na may something kami ni Calvin? Para naman umamin na siya ng feelings niya sa---

Teka--- what feelings, Cee?! Anong feelings ang pinagsasasabi mo diyan?!

Sinabi ko sa kanya ang totoo dahil wala naman kaming ginagawa ni Calvin. What's wrong with us having lunch?

"Sorry to ask, Cee. Nagulat lang kasi ako. As I know, you're the type to avoid guys especially like Calvin."

"Haha...oo nga. Pero kaibigan mo siya so I believe hindi naman siya masamang tao."

He smiled. "Tama ka diyan. He's actually a changed man. Just recently, he stopped smoking and going to night parties. Ewan ko ba. Kahit medyo mahangin kasi yang si Calvin, siya ang pinakamisteryoso saming grupo."

He chuckled and I would like to slap myself for saying he's cute. "Anyway, thanks for making friends with him."

"Ah, wala yun."  I said.

After eating lunch, he brought me to a nice cafe kung saan convenient magtrabaho. He even helped me with my work by giving ideas.

During my break time, we talked about our favorite topic: anime.

I enjoyed his company. Too busy talking to him to think about other people.

The next thing I knew, it's 5:35 pm at naalala ko ang sabi ko kay mama.

"Late na pala ako, Aki. Kailangan ko ng umuwi."

"Magluluto ka pa ng hapunan niyo noh?"

"Hehe..oo eh. Paano mo nalaman?"

"Mabait ka kaya I know kung paano ka magsilbi sa pamilya mo." He complimented me, in person.

Though I wanted to deny it, I felt a little throb in my chest. A mixture of happiness and sadness.

I said goodbye and went home.

Why do this now, Aki?!

Let me move on from you, please.

One of the reasons bakit hindi ko pa magawang maka-move on sa kanya ay dahil...hindi pa ako umaamin sa feelings ko ng maayos.

A thought then came to me. I'll confess again.

So please...just reject me.

Pagkauwi ko sa bahay ay agad na akong nagtrabaho. Nagsaing, nagluto ng hapunan at nagtupi nang mga damit nila.

I did my usual night routine and before sleeping, I checked my phone.

Aki sent me a message.

"Thank you for today, Cee. Next time ulit!"

I replied.

"Thank you too! Sure!

Aki:  Good night! God bless!
Me: same to you! God bless.

Our conversation today made me remember the past.

Kahit ano pa ang sabihin ni Calvin tungkol kay Aki, I decided to never regret that he and I became friends. :)

Speaking of Calvin, he did not bother to send me anything after that lunch.

What's with him...?!

*** to be continued ***