Diary of an Introvert

27

*** Reunited ***

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Three months after Calvin and I became officially in a relationship, I dreamed of the past. Specifically, my first painful heartbreak. That was when I cried under the rain. I didn't confess but was rejected face to face. I was in love with a guy but he was in love with my close friend.

It doesn't matter to me anymore but still bothered me in a way that I can't explain. I moved on and settled myself as his best friend yet that friendship ended unexpectedly and mysteriously (like 3 years ago). 

Yes, that was just a dream. I don't have to worry about that, right?

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"Sooooo? Kamusta naman ang buhay may boyfriend ha?" Here comes my friend Nalie. Kinukulit na naman ang buhay pag-ibig ko.

"Ikaw inaabuso mo na ang pagiging kaibigan ko ha." I joked. "Hmm...wala naman masyadong nagbago. We're still knowing each other. Ang pinagkaiba lang siguro ay yung label." 

"Eh?" She's now staring at me...like telling me that I should reveal more. "Nag-kiss na ba kayo?" 

"Ha?!" 

"Wow! Nagulat ka talaga? Dapat inasahan mo nang tatanungin kita noh! Huwag ka ngang painosente diyan dahil sa pagkakaalala ko, ikaw tong unang humalik sa kanya. Sus!"

Hinampas ko sa kanya ang hinahawakan kong notebook. Tss. "Hoy, huwag mo na ngang ipaalala sakin yan! Hay....nakakahiya talaga. Hindi ko namanpinlano yun eh. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ko nagawa yun. Ahh~" 

Yun na siguro ang sinasabing libido ni Freud. My gaaaaaash naman. Please, just forget it.

"Friend, nasa tamang edad ka naman eh. Okay lang yun as long as hindi lang sumobra. Yung alam mo na. Hehe...." 

"I know."  Yes I know my limitations. I know that I have to be cautious and responsible. I know that I should give respect to myself.

"Anyways, okay lang ba talaga sa inyo na magkita lang like few days in a week? Do you trust each other that much?" 

"Hmm...alam mo, yun nga yung parang mysterious eh. Alam kong marami akong insecurities sa buhay pero with Calvin, I feel really secured. Yung tipong nakakatulog ako ng maayos sa gabi kahit hindi kami madalas magkita. Yung simple text o tawag ay tama na." 

And yes, we both agreed that we like the excitement of spending time together after days of not seeing each other. Hay, heto na naman ang kakornihan ko. Hehe.

"Masaya ako for you, Cee. Sana kayo na talaga ang para sa isa't isa." 

"Thank you, Lee." 

My phone vibrated.